Learning to Love Him Again

Chapter 29 Part 1 of 2: Matters of the Heart

I want to thank God for continuing to give me the courage to write. I also want to thank all readers who continue to read this story :) I had placed this story on a brief hold due to my confidence hitting rock bottom, but I want to thank all readers who reached out to me and gave me words to encouragement to continue to write. I want to thank all of you who encouraged me to write and all readers who have read this story and have led me to continue to write :)

I will not be leaving a lot of notes from now on for the next couple of chapters because I want the story and the characters to speak for themselves. I will say I find this as a filler chapter as the next 3 chapters are going to be the crucial ones in the story, so I am not sure if you will find this chapter interesting, but still thank you for reading :)

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Flashback

My hands ran against the note as I sealed it shut placing it against my nightstand. Tears running down my cheeks as I stared at a picture of my parents feeling an ache in my chest with realization of what I was about to do.

"I am so sorry...I love you both, but then I love him the most. You have given me a roof and raised me with such good values, but then I have still felt empty Mom and Dad. A sense of emptiness and loneliness that even you both couldn't fill, but was filled by him...Mom and Dad love is what heals loneliness and somehow you both have cared for me, but I don't know if you both have loved me..." I whispered as I hiccupped placing the back of my hand against my lips as memories rushes back...memories of how my mother treated me...hit me...the physical and emotional...I stopped the thought as I bit into my lip grabbing on to my suitcase not wanting to remind myself of the bitter memories that I shared with my parents.

"I know what I am doing is wrong, but then...I have a right to my life and right with whom I want to be with...And I am sorry, but I tried my best, but you both just didn't want to listen to me. If only you both would've listened to me once," I muttered as I gathered my strength and rolled my suitcase opening the door.

I took a deep breath as I slowly walked towards my parents' room as I heard light snores. My hand trembling in nervousness as I twisted the doorknob slowly to catch a glimpse of my parents one last time.

As the door opened, I peeked through catching a last glimpse of my parents as they laid sound asleep. My heart breaking in an instant as I saw them with guilt falling down upon me. A sense of confliction erupting inside of me as I stood still watching my parents...What am I doing? Am I taking the right decision? Should I be leaving them? My eyes falling down to the engagement ring, Shivaay's ring, that I had slipped on to my finger tonight...a ring that is symbol of his love for me.