☆𝐁𝐞𝐧 𝐇𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐲 𝐈𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬☆

𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙛𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙨

my other update 'streaks' was originally called 'just friends' and it was supposed to be this kind of imagine but i changed it cause i had already mentioned snapchat in it so i was like 'why not?' because i needed a short joyful? imagine? and plus this was an excuse to use that gif 😳✋🏽

last night

ben pushes me up against the wall attacking my neck and lips with kisses as we drunkly make out with each other. we were at a house party someone from our school was throwing. we got seriously wasted and more feelings than we usually had overcame us. me and ben were only friends and nothing more, we never even seen each other sexually this way, maybe cause we never mentioned it to one another but we maybe thought it. i know i did—i know ben is hot but i don't recall ever want to make out with him and i'm sure this goes for him also.

"this outfit is so sexy on you" he groans running his hands up and down my sides. "do you want to take it off?" i say without thinking. i smirk and look at him with hazy eyes and he bites his lip. i lift my shirt over my head and toss it somewhere in the room.

"lay down"

the morning after

i opened my eyes being greeted with the sun leaking brightly through the blinds. i was in a bedroom—a random one. i went to sit up but a sharp pain shot through my head. out of instinct my hands flew towards my forehand putting pressure on it to try and sooth it out. i look beside me and see ben knocked out beside me...shirtless.

i'm shirtless, and pants less- no way-

my eyes widen and i raised up higher ignoring the hurting in my head as i began to freak out.

i had sex with ben. what the hell-

i felt his hand lazy touch my arm i look down at him. "can you stop moving so much" his voice comes out low and grumbly as he started to fall back asleep. his hand sliding off of me as i just started at him. "ben...wake the FUCK UP!" i yell hitting him a pillow. "what?" he whined opening his eyes only a little to get a look at me. "shit" he immediately whispers as he seen my bare back. i lean back on to the head board and scanned the room looking for my clothes before hand so i wouldn't struggle to find them. ben was up against the headboard too. "have a good time last night?" he says to fill in the silence. "apparently" i say with a bit of attitude. "alright okay. calm down, it's nothing serious" he held his hand out to try and ease everything.

"it was great wasn't it?" he smirked at me. i rolled my eyes as i felt my ears get hot. "i-i don't know okay? we were drunk,"
a smile on his face appeared as he seen i was getting flustered with this situation.

"okay yeah i get that but-" he started to say but i cut him off.

"and we're just friends, ben" i look at him seeing his smile falter and a look come over his face. i could read whether it was a sad one or an understanding plain look. "i just think we should forget that it happened, you know? so it won't make things awkward between us? like pretend it never happened" i looked down at my hands before going to stand up taking the sheet with and leaving the cover for him. we got dressed in silence and it was killing me how quickly awkward things got between us. i came from the bathroom seeing him put his shoes back on. "uhh i'll see you at school"
i say to him standing at the door. he raised his hand and gave me a quick wave.

monday

"how did you get home?" my friend, ryan, asked me. "i just called an uber" i shrugged my shoulders. "oh, i thought ben took you home since you two disappeared into think air" she chuckled. "speaking of that..." she eased her way into the topic. she leaned against the locker door swinging back and forth on it. "what happened? he came to school looking down"

"we're both aware that we slept together okay? that's what happens when you're a drunk high schooler. the next morning we had a small chat, i guess you would call it that, about it and i just said that we're were friends. only friends"

"when you clearly like him?" ryan raised her eyebrows. i closed my locker and let out a sigh. "i didn't want to say that because he was basically making a joke of it. if i said it then, i would look crazy..." i trailed off. "i think i hurt his feelings. just by a little"

"why would you think that? ben barely shows any of his feelings. he's one of those boys" she chuckled. i held that straps of my backpack as we started walking down the hallway. i shrug my shoulder and lifted my fingers from my grip as i did so. "well when i said it, he looked—i don't know, hurt? i guess? he didn't seen joyful at those words," i plopped my hands to my sides and looked down at the ground for a few seconds before peeking back up up to her. "but you know. my crushes only last a few days. i can't seem to like one boy and you know that" a smile on my face as i softly fist bumped her arm.

"ben as been your crush for a week" ryan mentioned. "it's takes time" was the last thing i said before splitting our ways and going to my classroom. i went to the back of the class and sat next to ben.

'jeez, he does look sad' i thought to myself as i took a quick look at his expression before speaking to him. "hey, are you okay?" i ask out of habit. it wasn't my fault. it's a tendency to ask someone if they're okay when they're looking down in the dumps. he looked up from his paper he was writing on. his face turning into a weird confused one as he looked around for a few seconds before at me again.

"yeah" he answered like it was a obvious answer and dumb question. "why?" he let out a small laugh. my mouth formed into an 'o' shape as i glanced away from him for a few seconds before looking back at him.

"if you want to talk about i'm okay with it" i subliminally mention. he looked at me. "okay...why do we need to talk about it?"
he swung the pencil between his fingers. my mouth frowned as i shrugged my shoulders not having to right respond. "i-i don't know. i just thought it was bothering you"

"it's not bothering me none," he pointed to himself. "i'm pretending like it didn't happen. like you said, forget it. i only remember bits and pieces of it. do you remember any of it?" he pointed his hand at me. "no" i reply in a whisper. "great" he raised his eyebrows a little with a sarcastic smile on his face. "see? now problem solved huh?" he gave me one last smile before looking back down to his paper continuing what he was doing before. i look away from him after a few seconds before turning forward in my desk taking in a breath.

it's awkward now. i just know it