Scars // m.c. BOOK 1 (Completed)

CHAPTER 15

Michael's POV

it's been 2 weeks now and Im still waiting her to wake up. The guys visits almost every day check up on me and Zoe. My mom get me some clothes and food, and sometimes she let me sleep for a while and she'll look out for Zoe for me.  I'm thankful that my parents are understanding people and they know that I care for Zoe so much.

It's 6:14 pm now and I'm on my phone just scrolling through instagram seating on the chair beside Zoe's bed. I'm in the middle of watching some cat video when I hear a soft voice almost fainted one calls my name.

I look up to Zoe and I saw her eyes open. I got up immediately and tears starts to form in my eyes. She's awake, she's finally awake. 

"Zoe,  I'm here. It's mikey" I told her and held her hand. She looks slowly towards me and our gaze meets. There's a smile on my face when I saw those brown eyes again.

"hey there sleeping beauty" and gave her a smile with tears on my eyes. Those are happy tears. I called the nurse and tell them that she's awake. They examined her and ask her questions about what she feels and she seem fine now. She looks a little tired but she looks so much better than the first day she's here.

She's seating up on the bed and she calls for me when the doctor got out of the room. I cant stop myself and kissed her for a second and she let me.  I miss those lips. She gave me a small smile kiss me on the check.

"are you hungry? Thirsty?" I asked her

"water sounds good" she said. I get a water bottle and a straw and let her drink. I giggled when she almost finish the whole bottle. "someone's thirsty aye? "she just giggled and wiped a drip of water from her lips. I set down the water bottle and just look at her, I'm so happy that she's awake.

"how are you feeling, love? " I asked her then tucked a strand of hair behind her ear.

"I'm feeling okay,  just a little tired. How long I've been out? " she asked me

"2 weeks and almost 2 days. And damn girl you sleep more than me and you're still tired" I joked and she laughed.  Oh that laugh,  I miss hearing her laughs.

"oh shut up, Gordon" she rolls her eyes on me and I'm just there being happy that she's back.  She seems normal and back to herself and I'm glad. But I hope she really is okay.

Zoe's POV

Me and Michael are talking about stuff that I've missed this past 2 weeks, he told me that Calum and Bea are dating now and happy for them both. Luke and Ashton... Nothing changed I guess?

Michael asked me what I'm feeling I told him that I'm okay but to be honest I don't know.  I tried to kill myself but I failed, and since yesterday we never really talked about that and it kinda bother me that it's like nothing happened.

There's this feeling inside me that I wanna open it up to him and he do too but we just don't want to ruin the good vibe so we've decide to not talk about it. I feel embarrassed about things. I made them worry so much about me and a little mad that I'm still here, breathing. I tried to put that thought at the back of my head and trying to be positive about things cause I really see how Michael and everyone cares about me and I don't want to dissapoint them or hurt them.

Me and Michael are now cuddling on a hospital bed and the thought of it makes me smile. We're watching the fault in our stars right now and he's trying not to cry. He hold me close to him and kissed my head and by that gesture it made me smile.  I really do enjoy his company and I'm happy when he's around.  I never imagine that I'll feel like this towards someone and when you think about it even more all he did for me is too much to ask for. I just don't want to lose him, he's the only person who cares about me this much and makes me feel that I matter. I got lost in my thoughts and didnt noticed that the movie is done and Michael asked me something.

"what did you say?" I asked him
"I said if you are tired. I doze off in a while there Zoe, you okay? " he asked a little worried.

"I'm okay Mikey just thinking about stuff" I gave him a smile assuring that I'm okay.

"what's on your mind? Care to share?" should I tell him about it? He'll know it eventually so why not tell him about it now.  I seat up and cleared my throat and he did the same thing.  I put my hands on my lap and look at them thinking where to start. He held my hand and make me look at him.

"it's okay, I'll listen to you whatever it is" he assures me. I nodded and started to talk to him

"well, we never really talk about what happened since I woke up and it kinda bothers me that we're pretending that nothing happened. It's not that I wanna make it a big deal and talk about it first thing I woke up it's just... IDK it feels weird Mikey" I said looking down in embarrassment. He sighed and tucked a hair behind my ear then make me look at him.

"Zoe,  listen to me. It's not that I'm ignoring or we're ignoring what happened, it's just we think that you don't wanna talk about it and I'm just waiting for you to open up to me.  I don't wanna rush you to speak and tell me what really happened. And yes it's a big deal for me, Zoe. I almost lose you and I don't want that to happened again cause I can't...  I can't lose you." his green eyes starts to water but his trying not to break into tears. He held me close to him and kissed my head and I just hugged him tight.

"I'm sorry I made you guys worried" I lean my head to his chest and I can hear his heart beat and it calms me in some way.

"it's okay, Zoe just please don't do that again. And you can be honest with me about your feelings,  you can talk to me anytime and anywhere. I'll be here for you, we're here for you. My ears are all yours when you're ready to tell me what happened" there's this joy in my heart that I can't explain. I'm thankful for him and my friends. I buried my face to his neck and the familiar musky cologne lingers on my nose.

"Mikey, can I have to tell you something" I can't take any second not to tell him about how I feel towards him. I looked at those green eyes and he's waiting for me to speak.

"i... Well, urmm the thing is... Michael, I'm really thankful and happy that you are here and taking care of me. The guys told me you didn't move and stayed here waiting for me to wake up and that's really sweet.  No one treats me like you treated me and it's so overwhelming. This is all new for me, the feeling of someone cares about me and worried about me, they're all new to me. I'm happy when you're around,  you make me laugh, Michael. No one did that for me." I start to tear up and he just listen to me rubbing my hand.

"I-i never felt like this before towards someone and I was confused at first but now I'm not, I know what it is now" I paused for a moment and took a deep breath.

"Michael,  I..  I love you" I told him. He just stare at me with no reaction. Did I fuck things up? He didn't feel that same way... He thinks I'm weird that's why he doesn't like me. I looked down and trying not to break into tears again.

"I love you too, Zoe" and by that my gaze meets his and kissed me. A tear fell on my cheek, happy tears.  I can feel butterflies on my tummy and our kiss heated up. He moved back so we can breathe, we both giggled and lean to each other.

"w-wait you do really mean it? " he asked me in disbelief.

"yes,  Michael Gordon Clifford I do love you and I mean it"

"so... We're together now right?  You're my girl friend now? " he asked and stood up from the bed

"Yeah, mate you have a girl friend now" I said mimicking his accent. He jumps and scream around the room like a 7 year old boy win on a carnival.  He's too loud and some nurse entered the room asking of everything is okay.

"I have a freaking girlfriend!! She loves me too!! " he said to the nurse.  I just laughed at his actions and the nurse seem confused and took a few minutes to get it. She nodded and looked at us.

"Well, congrats for you too. And please keep it down Mr. Clifford there's other patient in this hospital" the nurse chuckled before leaving the room. The whole room filled with our laughter and he kissed me once again.