You and Me

Chapter Thirty-One

"I have to go" I sniffled just facing his door

"So I don't even get a proper goodbye?" I didn't turn around I can't face him, it's too hard

"If you're going to break my heart you at least owe me an explanation" I don't want him to say that, I hate being the person who hurts him

"Lucas, don't" I might be strong at some things but I'm weak around Lucas

"Don't do what? Try and stop my girlfriend from breaking up with me because I know she doesn't what to either" I heard him stand up from the bed but I still didn't turn around,

I guess I can't lie to him either

"You don't think I know you've been lying to me since we first met, I don't know what about exactly but you suck at lying Maya" I cant tell him the truth he wouldn't ever see me the same.

I like knowing he's not part of my past and he knows nothing about it, so I can't tell him.

I won't

"I don't need to know, when you're ready to tell me you can" I let out a breath of relief

"But you don't need to lie to me, the only thing I want to know is why you're leaving me and ruining what we have?" He took a few steps closer to me, I should just open the door and leave

I should just open the door and walk away but it's like my body won't let me move

I took a deep breath "Please stop. You're making this too hard" I was holding back a wave of tears

"What am I doing Maya, you can leave right now and I won't stop you" I know he won't stop me but I'm stopping myself, I don't want to hurt him

This was just supposed to be a happy goodbye but now it's turned into me breaking up with him and struggling to even speak anymore

"Do you think this is easy for me?" I turned around to him but I didn't look him in his eyes I looked down at my feet

"My heart is breaking, I care so much for you but this is the right thing to do" I actually looked at him now which made things so much harder

"Why is it?" I can't tell him and I can't think of a lie

What am I going to do now ?

"I don't want you to get hurt and if we stay together you will" I feel like I'm repeating the same thoughts over and over again

I just want to be happy for once but of course I never can be

"What aren't you telling me?" I gulped, I have to leave now,

I can't say goodbye in a way I wanted to and if I stay in his cabin any longer I'm going to have to tell him the truth

"You said I didn't have to tell you anything?" I looked away from him again, could I just leave now?

"Who are you so scared of Hart?" I shook my head and pressed my lips together

"If you tell me I can help protect you" He grabbed my hand softly and I looked back up in his eyes

"It's not me I'm worried about" I let go of his hand and turned away

"You think almost drowning hurt me? Huh? No they hurt you to get to me and that is barely scratching the surface of what they do" I shouted angrily, he needs to let this go

"I'm sorry but I can't let you get more hurt." I opened the door and stepped outside closing it behind me

I went over to the back of my cabin and grabbed my small bag of things that I had hid, I just packed my necessities, the things I really love

I grabbed my bag and swung it over my shoulder and I started to leave the campsite

I stayed strong most of the way out but I couldn't hold my tears back for long

I just started crying and I couldn't stop I moved to the side of one of the last few cabins and slouched down on the floor

Emotions weren't good, they made us weak and stopped us from doing what needed to be done

I took a few deep breaths to steady my breathing and to stop crying. After a short while I calmed down more and stood back up

I walked from around the cabin I was sitting by and walked towards the main path. As I got closer to the exit I realised all my worst fears

I'm too late

They're here.

Shit!! I should of left with no goodbyes like Jay said too. This is why I don't make friends or fall for anyone. It just messes me up and throws me off track

I can't leave now. They had closed the exits off

I slowly walked backwards crouching to stay quiet and unseen, I moved around the cabins and went on the opposite side to them

I wasn't thinking clearly and ended up banging into some storage crates stacked up outside and round the back of the front offices

They all crashed onto the ground alerting the others.

Fuck!!

"Check that out." Somebody ordered and I heard footsteps getting closer

I held my hands up in fists ready to fight if I need too

As they came around the corner and out of view from the others I hit them straight in the throat so they fell to the ground getting winded

"Shit Ace" he groaned coughing getting his breath back

I let out a worried gasp and crouched down beside him.

Oh god I just hit Jay

"Are you okay?" I whispered and he sarcastically put a thumbs up

"What's going on?" The same guy shouted

I helped Jay up and he moved his head round the corner "False alarm probably a squirrel or something"

Thankfully Jay covered for me and they became less suspicious

"You were supposed to leave!" He whisper yelled at me and I sheepishly smiled

"I missed my chance." He sighed, and tried to look back at the exit

"I have to go, first chance you get leave. Next time you won't be so lucky" I nodded and Jay walked away back to the others

Time to get my friends and find a way out of this place