Lips Lickin' Lolli's For Money • Joshler One-Shot Stories

Love Light, Guide Me Home

OKAY!!! ROSIE IS HERE, AODRABLE BEBE I PROMISE. But I have really good news, I'm proud of them but I'm now a dad.

Not really, because I associate myself as female, but my bestfriend just had her kid. There's baby daddy, but, I dont like him, and where he at. EXACTLY. So I'm dad and I get to see her nextweekend. Born friday night.

So to wake up today (saturday) and see Jenna's post and my bestfriends pictures. I was a fucking crying mess brooo.

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Josh laid upside down on the couch, his hair waved as his body twitched. His nerves were really bad, his muscles kept flexing and they hurt. If he thought about it, it would only get worse, leading him to have a panic attack, and that was the last thing he wanted as he was in the apartment alone.

With the bottle of dark bacardi sat mockingly on the table and the low sounds of trashy television was enough to keep him below the panic line. But he didnt know how long it would last. His eyes kept going in and out of focus, mainly because the deep hole caved into his chest made him remember what just happened as little as two hours ago.

The way he had been embarrassed, remembering how he had been stressing about this one moment for months, months, and it had stabbed him the way he never wanted it to. He remembered every word, he memorized it to make it as special as possible for her.

He memorized the little speech he made as he chose to kneel down, look up at her, and watch as her face had once smiled and turned to shock. Shock. Joah thought it was a good thing, he surprised her, just how he wanted. He made her quiet as they were put and about, at the park, the sun beamed behind her, just how he wanted. For once, everything worked out for him, all he had to do was say it.

And he did, Will you marry me?" She had remained quiet, her eyes growing tears. She bent down to Josh, hugging him tightly, crying into his shoulder, it hit josh then.

"I'm sorry," she whispered. She denied him, she stood up and Josh did tok, he held her tightly,they walked to the car. He drove her home, she left with nothing to say, and he drove back to his apartment. And that's where he was now, laid upside down, confused, and scared.

What did this mean for their relationship, were they still together, is she not ready or never wanted to marry. What was the problem, Josh wanted to know, but he was scared to call her, scared to text her. He gave her her space, he knows that when she is stressed that's all she wants. And when she is ready he will come and lay by her, cuddle her, and relieve her as much as she pleases. He was great like that.

"Fuck it," he muttered, turning right side up and grabbing the bottle. He popped the cap of and tilted his head back. This isn't what he wanted to do.

-_-

"Come on, let me in, please," Brendon smiled as he held softly to Tyler's waist as the younger tried opening his door. Tyler giggled, yeah, he does it more as a flirt than what he actually finds funny.

He moves as an attempt to move out of the hold but Brendon only pushes him back so Tyler could feel his semi through the jeans. He huffs,  he turns to look at Brendon, a smile on his lips but hes not happy. "Bren, I need you to go home. Thanks for bringing me to my door, but I need to go."

Tyler turned to open the door, yet Brendon stopped him again. He smiled, it was the smile that caught Tyler's attention in the first place. He leaned in slowly, pecking Tyler's lips. Tyler let him. Then again, and again, and Tyler knew what Brendon was doin, he wanted to see how far it'd get.