Yours, Now and Forever Book #2(A Jordan Knight Fanfiction)

Ch. 23

Vivian is all nerves as she rings the bell at Orlando's house, the house they'd shared. No one answers, she feels relieved, he's not home. She let's herself in. Vivian goes into the bedroom she had shared with Orlando. To her shock and surprise, Orlando is in the bed. He's with a woman. "Oh shit, I'm so sorry." Vivian says before going back out the door. She isn't sure how she feels about what she just saw. She has no right to feel anything other than happy for him. He deserves to be happy more than her or Jordan do.

Vivian doesn't know what to do, she wants to get hers and the kids stuff packed, but she feels like an intruder in what used to be her house. She quickly writes him a note asking him to call her and apologizing to him again. She goes to leave, and Orlando stops her. "Hey Vivi, hold on. I'm so sorry you saw that. If I'd known you were coming by I wouldn't have...."

"Its fine Lando. You have nothing to apologize for. I want you to be happy. You deserve it more than anyone. Was that Maggie?"

Vivian thinks Orlando looks embarrassed at first. But then she takes a closer look, she thinks he looks smitten. His shy smile has always been a comfort to her. "So how did this start?" Vivian asks him, genuinely curious.

"Well, after you left that night, I was a fucking mess. I know I didn't show it, but you ripped my bloody heart out. Maggie came to my trailer to check on me when she saw you leave. All she did was hold me. She didn't say a word, just let me cry. When I was done I felt better. Something about her presence had a healing effect on me. After that I wasn't sad, or mad, or upset, I was just suddenly okay with everything. It was the oddest thing, to get that news from you and only feel crushed for twenty minutes. I was at peace with what had just happened. And I don't know, maybe it was because of Maggie. Or maybe it was because I'd known all along you belonged with Jordan, and things were finally right with the world. I'd like to believe it was Maggie. That way I'm less of a dick for being with you when I knew you were meant for someone else."

Vivian thinks about what he said, "We'll say it was all because of Maggie. I'm just glad you're okay. And that you don't hate me."

He gives her a little push on her shoulder, "Vivi, I could never hate you. So what are you doing back out already?"

"I just wanted to get everything taken care of as soon as possible. Today I was going to get mine and the kids stuff packed up."

"Are you shipping it all back to Boston?"

"No, moving it over to the house in California."

"You hate it there. Are you staying there by yourself while you're here?"

Her eyes move to the floor. "No, Jordan came out with me."

Orlando is surprised how that knowledge doesn't bother him as much as he'd have thought it would. "Why didn't he come to help you pack?"

Vivian gives him a look, "Really Lando? Do you think I'd bring him to your house after everything? I'm not that much of a bitch."

"Vivian, you're not a bitch, not at all. Go get Jordan, bring him back over here with you in two hours. Okay?"

"Okay Lando. Go back to what you were doing. We'll come back in two or so hours. Sorry for interrupting things."

Vivian leaves and heads back to Jordan. He's surprised to see her so soon. "Hey babe, are you already get done? That didn't take long. Not that I'm complaining. I'm glad you're back."

"I didn't get anything packed. Orlando was home. He said for me to come back in two hours and to bring you with me."

Jordan gets angry. "What the fuck is that all about? Why didn't he let you get yours and the kids stuff? I know he's upset but he doesn't have to be a prick to you."

"J, he wasn't being mean, he was just with someone. I walked in on them in his bedroom."

Jordan can't help but laugh, "Oh, well good for him." Jordan looks entirely too happy, Vivian elbows him. "What Viv, I'm just happy for him. You have no idea what it's like to lose you. I've been through that hell twice. It's not fun."

Vivian hugs him from behind, squeezing him tight. "I'm sorry for putting you through that. I'll never do it again. I promise J." Her voice is quiet and shakey by the end of her comment. Jordan tries to turn around to face her, but Vivian tightens her arms so he can't. She doesn't want to face him while she cries. "Vivian, please, babe don't cry. I'm sorry I said that. I wasn't trying to make you feel bad." He tries to turn around again, but she tightens her arms again. She's not ready to face him.

She's suddenly feeling like a horrible human being. In their own words, she's put Jordan through hell, twice and she ripped Orlando's heart out. What kind of woman does this to two such wonderful men? She really begins to think about what she put Jordan through over the years. "Why do you still love me? I've been horrible to you over the years."

Jordan finally forces her to let go of him. When be turns to face her she covers her face with her hands. Jordan just wraps his arms around her and pulls her against his chest. "Viv, my love, please stop. Listen to me, I love you because you are my soulmate. I love you because every fiber of my being ignites when you're near me. And you are not a horrible human being. You are the mother of my two beautiful, intelligent, kind, loving children. And they are all those things because of the person you are. Viv, look me in the eyes" she looks up at him, "I wouldn't change anything about us. Not one minute. We are who we are now because of what we've been through. I don't have any bad feelings about you or any decision you've made. I love you for making the hard decisions for yourself. I know you've never done anything to hurt me. You've always done what was best for us at the time. But we've always found our way back to each other. So nothing else matters, just you and I, and the lives we've built over the years. I've got no regrets. And I wouldn't change a fucking thing. Not even the last few years you were with Orlando."

Vivian tries to see things Jordan's way. He's always been so positive and seen everything in a better light than Vivian. She knows she wouldn't be as understanding as he has been. She's not sure she would have taken him back after he left her, twice. Especially if he had married another woman. Jordan's love for her amazes her everyday. "How did I get so lucky?"