Flourish \\ Sequel to Not a Hollywood Whore | MGK

~Meeting~

We pulled up to the house and I got out pulling the bags back over my shoulder and I opened the left side taking out Kennedie's carseat and Mateo unbuckled himself and got out I went to the other side momentarily setting kennedie's carseat on the ground. I took out Caylee and shut the door I picked up the carseats one in each hand and we walked to the door. 

Me:Open it papas

He opened it and he pushed it open with my help and we walked in I kicked it closed softly. 

Mateo:Dada!!

He yelled running into the kitchen and I heard Colson I walked into the kitchen. Colson was holding Mateo and he looked at me. 

Me:He wanted to see you 

I said plainly we haven't really talked at all in the past two months. We only really talked when I actually had the girls cause obvi he was there. I set the carseats on the ground. 

Slim:That's it family meeting now

He went throughout the house gathering the scattered members. Everyone sat at the table including Colson who was still holding Mateo. 

Ashly:Come on sit down 

She spoke to me I looked at the girls who still laid in their carseats and they were asleep. I set the diaper bag and my purse on the island and walked over to the table sitting in the free chair crossing my legs and holding my hands in my lap. 

Dre:Ya'll need to work this out

I saw Jack move so we all were in frame. 

Dub:Cause frankly this s**t is ridiculous 

I looked down. 

Colson:I dont know how many more ways I can apologize and I'm not going to spend the rest of my goddamn life apologizing

Me:Yea well I can't spend the rest of my life worrying about if what you say to me is the truth. Do you think this is what I want to be doing? Being on my own, being a single mom, having to comfort my son because he wants to go home where his dad and sister and family is? No but I dont want to spend my time worrying if your talking to other girls or if your sleeping with other girls. Por el amor de Dios! (for f**ks sakes) all I want to do is come home! All I want to do is be laid up with you and hug you and kiss you and tell you how much I love you but I dont want to get hurt again and again and again. 

Tears rolled down my cheeks. 

Me:*sniffles* I love you my n**ga but I feel like I gotta walk on egg shells and detach myself cause you might slip up

Megan:Come on baby

She picked up Mateo and went upstairs with him. 

Colson:I can't take how distant you are sometimes! I feel like when you get distant you'll- you'll leave and then I feel alone so I outsource

It was quiet

Slim:Ki how does that make you feel?

Me:*sniffles* Like s**t

I wiped my tears only for them to be quickly replaced and Colson got up and came over and forced me to stand so he could hug me.

Me:*sniffles* I never wanted to make you feel alone 

Colson:I never wanted to hurt you

I laid my head against his chest wrapping my arms around him and I relaxed in his embrace. I looked up at him taking off my sunglasses.

Me:I'm sorry

Colson:............I'm sorry, forgive me?

I nodded

Me:Yes, do you forgive me?

Colson:Yea, I love you

Me:*smiles* I love you more

We kissed and he pulled me close hugging me again. Then the twins started crying and the hug broke I went to Kennedie and he went to Caylee they stopped once we held them. 

Later that night

I ended up bringing our things back home to cols and the twins went to sleep in their nursery for the first time and Mateo was relieved and happy to be home. He was asleep and I was in the studio with Cols, dub,megan,slim and rook. Plus Jack was here, I was recording some songs I made when we were separated.

Me:Lets do the sad ones first so the end will end on a good note

Dub:Okay

He pulled up the first track and I had already written these songs so I went in the booth and I rapped the first verse

Me:Here we go again, it's the game we love Sheets all over the floor and they laced with drugs You ain't play your cards right, you had the Ace of Clubs Hit you with the Ace of Spade, in your face, and shrugged Blood drippin' out your arm on my Asian rugs We was just planning a wedding, Caucasian doves You was just tellin' your mans, that you hate the clubs Now we in the crying game, heart laced with slugs

Then I sang

Me:Are you alone? Do you need someone? Is it too late to talk? Did I wait too long? Thousand words Don't change a thing Is it only three? Three words that you're missing? Where did you go? Couldn't see I was too busy Could've just said no Where would you go? I think I know Hoo, hoo We're back to playing We're back to playing Hoo, hoo We're back to playing The crying game I could've given everything Don't wanna let the tears begin We're back to playing The crying game I could've given everything Don't wanna let the tears begin We're back to playing The crying game

I rapped the second verse

Me:Welcome to the crying game where you lose your soul Where it ain't no E-Z pass, you got to use the toll Ain't no cruise control, you 'bout to lose control Ain't no smilin' faces here, we slammin' doors and dishes Sayin' we don't miss each other, but it's all fictitious Sayin' that we had enough, but enough of what? Another slap to the face, another uppercut I'm just abusive by nature, not 'cause I hate ya Not cause I wanna get someone to imitate ya I know it's hard, I know I intimidate ya But is you stayin' or goin'? I couldn't breathe and you ain't even know it

And I finally sang

Me:How come you never show it? All this love you speak of All I want is to love and be loved I'm losin' a thing I thought I'd win And I'm coming undone 'Cause the tears don't end Where did you go? Couldn't see I was too busy Could've just said no Where would you go? I think I know Hoo, hoo We're back to playing We're back to playing Hoo, hoo We're back to playing The crying game I could've given everything Don't wanna let the tears begin We're back to playing The crying game I could've given everything Don't wanna let the tears begin We're back to playing The crying game