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chapter 8 | Ex-girlfriends

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12:30 pm.

"Hey..." I look at her with my hands in the pockets of my leather jacket, not getting closer or hugging but only fixing my black cap. She doesn't say anything but steps closer to me to end with her arms under my jacket for them to be around me and her face against my chest. "I'm sorry..."

I exhale sharply but don't move or return the embrace. "Dahee..." I place my hand on her arm to delicately pull her away. "I'm here to talk, nothing else."

"You don't like me...right?" she gazes up at me, her question being hard to answer without hurting her. "Dahee...you know how I'm feeling lately and I told you I don't want to be in a relationship again at the moment—"

"But I'm not like her..." she sobs right before my eyes, "I won't ever cheat on you or hurt you...I swear to god Jungkook..." she stares into my eyes hopelessly but I break the eye contact and sigh. "I don't want to hurt you either Dahee...I like you and I like spending my time with you by my side but I just can't...I don't want to be in a relationship now..."

"If you didn't date Seyoung...would you have tried something with me...?" she wipes her tears away while breaking my heart with this gaze. I hate hurting people like that but I'm not going to force myself to say yes when I know this won't work on my side. "I don't know...maybe but I don't know how I would have felt...It's not against you, I promise. I just don't want to try something new. I'm not okay."

"Are you sure it's for that reason...? Isn't it because I'm not pretty enough...?" she starts to say dumb stuff when I explained to her the reason of my answer. "No...you know you're pretty. I told—"

"Is it because you're already in love...? You're dating y/n or another girl...?" she cuts me off only to ask me unnecessary questions. "No Dahee! I told you, I do not want to date anyone at this right moment. Stop thinking like that."

"I just like you and...you have no idea how much it hurts when I see you with another girl..." this scenario happens for the thousandth time. I already faced this, I already had to say no to a girl when I was dating the other bitch and thought I would end my life with her. "What if I wait for you...? Will you want me once you'll be ready...?"

"Don't wait for me...please..." I make her understand my answer in a kind manner, not being harsh or too straightforward. She doesn't look at me anymore but only moves forth once again to encircle my waist with her arms. "I'll wait...I don't care..."

I don't push her away to not make it harder for her, my arms returning the hug to comfort her after the answer she received and which must be as painful as a bullet through the heart. "Have I ruined our relationship because of this...?" she snivels in my chest as her tears aren't ending. "No, you haven't."

"Can we go back to normal...?" she raises her chin up to gaze into my eyes with her teary ones but out of habit, I wipe those tears away from her skin and nod. "Yes..."

She tightens her clasp around me but rests her head against my chest. "Do you want me to buy you a coffee?" I comb her hair back but change of topic as fast as I can, not standing this heartbreaking one. "Yeah..." she doesn't refuse but withdraws from my body to just hold onto my leather jacket as if she didn't want to let go of me. "Stop crying then, alright?" I remove my arm from her and brush my finger past her wet cheek. She gazes at me and acquiesces cutely to follow me.

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1:20 pm.

< ok ]

The cold answer of y/n makes me smile in front of my screen, sipping onto my milkshake while walking with Dahee towards her house.

[ I can see you sulking, drink your banana milk🍼 >