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chapter 25 | Long ride

"Jungkook..." my name leaves her mouth with delicacy. "Yes, my baby?" I don't restrain myself but glide the tip of my finger along her lips, to follow the shape of them. "Do you like me...?"

My finger stops its movement, her question freezing me on my spot. I curl my finger to make it end on her chin but gaze at her into the eyes. "Yes I do...who wouldn't?"

"No...not this type of 'liking'..." her head lowers but I bring my hand down to her waist. I remain silent as this type of question always destabilize me a lot. A sharp exhale runs out of me but I delicately join our lips. The contact remains simple for some short seconds as none of us are moving our lips to make it passionate, however, I then do it to show her I want more from her.

She returns it to my greatest relief but makes us both kiss each other softly. "I like you a lot..." I whisper against her lips, encircling her waist with my arm to hold her. "You know I told you I didn't want to fall in love again because I don't believe in this anymore...but...I don't know..." I bite my lips and peck her lips before nestling my head in the crook of her neck. "I know I freaking like you more than I should...I'm just scared of that feeling I have...I didn't want to have it anymore..."

She doesn't say anything or move at all. I wouldn't want her to be distant, neither feel like I'm not being serious so if I don't use the right word, this could destroy our relationship that means a lot to me. She's really the only one I wouldn't want to lose, we both have something special together and I feel it.

"You mean a lot to me y/n...I'm serious..." I press a kiss on her shoulder, the strap of her nightdress touching my lips. "And not as a simple friend only..." I add to make sure she knows it. "But not as a girlfriend..." she slides her hands and arms away from me but I look into her eyes as this sentence just hurt me. The sound of her voice was so full of sadness that I fear she could not trust me from now on. "How could I call you my girlfriend if you don't want to be one for me?"

"Why do you think I said you're the only one I want to give my virginity to...?" she reminds me of this sentence as if I forgot it. "But we talked about the 'sugar daddy' thing....and...I thought you wouldn't mind having sex with me even if you're not in love with me...even though I told you to wait for the good one..."

"Yeah..." she breathes out but rolls on her back to create some space between us while I'm not letting go. "Hey..." I place my hand on the side of her face to have her eyes into mine. "I..." a gulp ruins my sentence. "I like you and I don't want to have you as a friend only..."

"Don't feel forced to say it because of me..." she turns to her side to now end with her back against my body when that's not what I wanted to see happening. "If I didn't want to, I would have told you that I'm not in love with you or just don't want to date like I did with the others. And I don't want you to think I'm saying this to not hurt you, I wouldn't make you believe in something that will maybe not happen. If I tell you I like you, I mean it and want you to be mine."

"I want to be yours too...and I've been for a long time already..." she confesses when I already knew about it but only ignored it. I didn't have the same feelings when she already had them but the more I got to know her personally, the more I started to feel that warm and fizzy sensation in my chest.

I draw myself closer to her body and stick mine to the back of hers, to look over her shoulder but rest my head on it. "Then now you're mine. I don't want you to belong to someone else anyway..." my thumb caresses her stomach but my lips press a kiss on her arm. "Or else I would be sad...and would have to leave to not have to see you with another man..."

No words leave her, the room staying silent but pleasant. I have her against me, I can hear her breathing, feel her skin against mine, that's all I wanted. "Are you sulking...?" I mumble in a quiet and sorrowful voice while rubbing the tip of my fingers over her stomach. "I'm not..."