ADDICTION || J.JK × Reader ✔

chapter 35 | Manipulated

He lays his eyes on me for a second. "He isn't, right?"

I shrug without looking at him, not knowing if I have the right to say that, I wouldn't want him to be seen as someone bad. "He is a little bit but...once I tell him to stop...he stops so it's okay."

He stops the car at another damn red light when we're not far away from the school anymore. However, I can feel his eyes on me. "Drunk or not, a guy shouldn't be tactile with his stepsister."

"I know but he doesn't know what he's doing..." I say without any doubt since I know Minkyu protects me. "The day after he does some things he tells you that, doesn't he?" he understands without me telling him more but I peek up at him. "Yeah...because he knows he wasn't conscious of what he was doing the day before..." some words that I didn't want to say leave me. I can't let so many things go out of my mouth like that, Minkyu is going to be mad and hurt if he knows I talk about it.

"Y/n..." he smiles in a fake manner but puts his eyes back in front of him to go back on the road. "If he wakes up and knows he did something wrong the day before, that just means he was conscious at that moment and knew what he was doing. Don't let him make you believe he didn't know what he was doing."

Maybe he's not wrong but I don't want to believe my stepbrother is someone bad. I don't want to believe he would do something to me with sexual intentions if he's not drunk and out of his mind. He's always here to protect me and take care of me...

"Alright?" he speaks out as he must have seen I felt weird. "I'm not saying this to annoy you or be a jerk but...I just know what it is to be drunk and I know a lot of guys- I mean," he stops himself in the middle of his sentence. "I'm not saying that your stepbro is like that but I know a lot of guys use this excuse to be forgiven. They drink a lot...pretend to be too drunk to realize what they're doing and touch a girl heavily...then force them to have sex and the morning after, they put all the blame on the alcohol."

"He doesn't force me to-" I cut myself off. "Whatever..." I don't say anything more, putting an end to this conversation to not let him know more about this. I should have shut my mouth way earlier. "You can tell me...what you say will stay between us, don't worry."

"I know but I just don't want to talk about it, he cares for me and he sometimes makes mistakes like everyone does...that's all," I keep my eyes on the outside and stay focused there while the things in my head are making me go insane. "I know what it is to be scared to talk about something that-"

"Mino..." I interrupt him and look at him. "I'm alright. Stop worrying...he's not a bad person."

He takes a peek at me as my words were clear enough for him to understand I won't go any further. He already managed to get a lot of information without me realizing so that's enough.

A sigh escapes him but he focuses back on the road. "Alright...I'm just there for you. I don't want to bother you..."

"I know," I press my bag against my chest and just rest my chin on it. I don't even know anymore...I'm just scared but I need to stay quiet, I don't want my stepbrother to be in trouble because I'm too stupid.

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7:05 am.

"Here we are...finally," he turns the ignition off and undoes his seat belt like I'm doing. "Do you want to stay in the warmth until the bell rings or...you want to see Jungkook?"

"What is he going to say...or do...?" I gaze at him with apprehension, holding into my bag. "Well...from what I've seen these last days...I think he will cry then...hug you...probably try to kiss you even if it's just on the cheek...I don't know but he misses you a lot and since you couldn't answer his texts, he's only been relieved yesterday with what I told him..."