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chapter 20 | Touch me

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5 pm.

I sit down at the edge of my bed after taking a shower, staying in my sweatpants only since it's hot in my room with y/n remaining silent behind me and spending her time on her phone. I ruffle my hair but lie down next to her, to be against her body.

"I'm so fucking worn out after this long day..." I exhale heavily and place one arm under my head to close my eyes. "And I'm sad..." I slip through my words but try not to smile. "You're sad? Why...?" she reacts instantly as if she was worried about me but I turn my head to gaze into her eyes. "I talked with my baby girl earlier and she said she would cuddle me, give me a lot of affection, but she's not and my heart is aching..." I act needy but she doesn't break the eye contact.

A smile of disbelief appears on her face and she drops her phone on her lap. "If you don't tell me, I can't guess what you want."

"I want you, all the time," I say the truth with no shame but watch her feeling shy about this sentence. Once it's straightforward, she gets all overwhelmed. "Now you know so don't try to use that pretext to avoid me."

She sighs but chuckles, placing her phone aside, she bends over and puts her arms around me to lay her head on my chest. I grin but run my fingers through her hair, to play with them. "Good girl."

"Now I'm going to rest because I'm tired," she speaks softly, not moving or complaining about my touch and actions. I tuck some strands of hair between her ear, the tip of my fingers stroking her skin, they reach out for her jawline and trace its bone. "Then close your eyes and go to sleep, I want to rest too."

She now remains silent so I do it too, my fingers caressing her features as my head is resting on hers. I grab the blanket in a kind manner and pull it up our tight-close bodies, my free hand touches the one she's keeping on my torso and I hold it.

10 minutes later...

The sleepiness still not taking over me as if my body didn't want me to drift to my dreams, I press a kiss on y/n's forehead but turn to the side to face her. I embrace her with my arms and stick my body to her curves for my face to be near hers, the most possible. I usually fall asleep in no time when I'm tired like this but for some reason that I don't know, I can't. Maybe I keep on thinking about her way too much, she's already sleeping now given the sound of her breathing and the expression of her face.

My eyes stare at her features, reveling in the moment with her in my arms, through the calm, through the dim light of the day slowly ending. I breathe in and out in a relaxed manner, rubbing my fingers over her back to soothe her no matter the state in which she is, I drop my gaze down to her lips. Without any warning, she snuggles up against me even more when no space is left between us, causing our lips to be barely away from each other.

My heart is suddenly pounding. I don't know what I'm feeling in my chest, this is like achy but pleasant at the same time. I hate it but like it. I want to kiss her lips, to taste them, have them between mine, and feel what it's like to have this type of intimacy with her. I lick mine but focus on her glossy and pink ones, her angelic face making it even harder to not be tempted by a tender touch. My heart now rushing mad into my chest, I move closer to her in the most gentle manner and tilt my head to the side while checking her eyes.

I close mine. I cannot do this, I don't have the right. I sigh sharply but establish the tiny gap back between us to prevent a kiss from happening.

I handle this frustration and just hold her close to me, shut my eyes, and wait to fall asleep.

1 hour later...