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chapter 24 | Real feelings

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6:40 pm.

"Let's get to the fridge section," my mother leads the way with her cart already full of items she didn't ask me to write. I and y/n follow her as I'm keeping my phone in my hand to make sure I check the note and that we don't forget anything.

"Y/n," she turns towards her to drift her attention away from the chickens. "Are you going to eat with us today?"

"Oh no...I have to go home to get ready for tomorrow...I don't even have a suitcase yet so I'll have to go shopping with my parents and brother..." she doesn't pronounce stepbrother getting me a bit surprised. "Ah alright, I'm not going to take a whole chicken then, is it okay if I just cook meatballs Kook?"

"Yeah," I agree but lock my phone to take a break, I'll check if everything is taken once we'll be ready to get to the checkout. "I'm going to the snacks section though, I need time to pick," I smile at her but she lets me go without any problem. I step away but stop to stretch my hand out to my girl and gestures her to take it. "You come with me?"

She slides her hand in my larger one and allows me to drag her to another area. I hold her tight to make sure she stays with me and take a look at each section we're passing by, to find the good one I would like to reach.

As soon as the boxes of biscuits appear within sight, I head towards it and already scan each different snack. "If there's something you want to take, don't hesitate. Alright?" I stroke the back of her cold hand with my thumb but she smiles to answer me with a movement of her head. She's been quiet since what happened in my bed. I don't like this.

I try to not think about it at the moment but intertwine our fingers. Maybe this 'sugar daddy' thing isn't making her happy at all but she doesn't dare tell me. Personally, I'm starting to feel like I'm pretending not to have feelings for her. I'm afraid of it, maybe that's why I'm a coward and act like I'm cool with this type of relationship when I know how I would feel if she wanted someone else.

I didn't want to fall in love, however, I think this is too late as always.

"Can I take this...?" she snaps me out of my thoughts by pointing at a box of strawberry snacks but I take it. "Yes sure, do you want one or two boxes?"

"One is enough," she answers in her small voice, causing a smile to turn my lips up. "Okay, I'm going to take these cookies and three boxes of Oreo Pepero," I grab them all with one hand to not let go of y/n but she helps me and takes the last one I couldn't take. "We should have taken a small basket..."

She suddenly lets go of my hand. "I'm going to get one," she walks away but since I can't feel good once she's alone, I follow her small steps. In only short seconds, she gets one and drops her item in it, before heaving it up to let me put mine inside. "Give it to me, I don't want you to hurt yourself," I take it in my hold since I know how delicate and precious her hands are and I carry our own items.

While going back to where we were, her fingers slide in the palm of my hand and ask for mine to embrace them, so I tighten my hand around it and stop before the snacks again. "Don't you want some banana milk to go there?" I smile at her with some tease since y/n and banana milk are inseparable. She nods as expected so I keep it on my mind. "We're going to take some then."

She beams as if she was happy about it but lays her eyes back on the snacks. "Can you get me that one...over there?" she steps forth but stands on her tiptoes to indicate something out of her reach. I giggle quietly but put the basket down to grab what she asked for and add it to our list, then retrieve this item.

"Don't you want my mom to drive you to the mall? We'll buy the suitcase over there and then we'll drive you back to your house..." I suggest doing since I would like to have her by my side as much as possible. "Are you sure this won't bother your mom?"