ADDICTION || J.JK × Reader ✔

chapter 33 | Painful mistake

"Sweetheart?" he passes his fingers through my hair but bends over, to press a kiss on my temple. "Hey..." he brings his hand down to my arm to touch it but stay with his lips on my ear. "Did you rest a little today?"

"No..." I shake my head but remain in the same position. "What are you drinking?" he peeks into the cup I've been staring at this whole time and places his right hand over mine that is holding the item. "A hot chocolate?"

"Hm..." I give as a yes. "It feels cold, do you want me to warm it up?" he offers to do for me but I refuse. "I don't want to drink it anymore."

He sighs but straightens his back, sliding his hand up to my neck when I want him to not touch me at this moment. "Did you study?" he walks away and heads to the kitchen counter just on my left but I let go of my drink. "Yes, I did."

"Good," he replies while pouring some coffee in a cup. "Did you do the homework you received?"

"Yeah..." I nod. "I did."

"I'm proud of you," he lets a smile appear through his voice and comes back closer to me, but I stand up. "Wait," he cups my waist to not let me go away and sticks his body to the back of mine while holding his drink. "You didn't make any new videos today...are you gonna do it tonight...?"

"No...I'm not in the mood..." I shake my head but don't move away from my spot as he's keeping me still. "Not even for me...?" he brings his arm up to my neck to encircle it and hug me from behind, his lips pecking my ear the way Jungkook used to do it to me. "I'll help you if you want, you don't have to record it."

"I'll see..." I answer in a vague manner but he steps aside while brushing his fingers past my waist. "Good. Do you really want to go back to school tomorrow though? I can pay you some courses to stay here..."

"No..." I get myself away from his touch and walk towards the living room. "I thought last night would help you to change your mind..." he brings this forth when I hoped he would not mention it again. I grab hold of my phone and ignore his words. "Do you want to do it again?"

"No," I answer straightforwardly and step to the stairs to climb them up and leave this open space. "Why? I'm not good at cuddling?"

"Because I don't want to," I reach the upper floor and enter my bedroom to slam the door behind me and end on my bed. I check my texts and Jisung's ones first.

< hey, when are you going to come back to school...I'm worried as ever... ]

[ tomorrow, sorry for worrying you. I was just not feeling good >

Once this message is sent, I check the ones I received from Jungkook but which I haven't answered.

< y/n...please. I'm begging you answer me I can't deal with this anymore I'm scared to death ]

< you know I love you more than anything or anyone, I didn't mean to hurt you and I would do anything to make it up for this damn mistake I regret ]

< you mean so much to me...my days feel endless when I'm not with you or talking to you...my heart keeps on making me feel like something bad is going on and I'm on the verge of going berserk ]

< I went to your parents house so I know you're at your stepbros one. Tell me everything is ok please...I need to make sure you're safe and alright. Please... ]

< I miss you so much... ]

No matter how much I want to answer him, my stepbrother forbade me to do it so I lock my phone after reading them, feeling hurt and lost in my feelings. This happened again, the one I put all my trust in hurt me again for no good reason.