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chapter 34 | Drunk

I know what I'm about to ask is going to sound bad but I need to get an answer. "I...I'm maybe thinking wrong about this but..." I look at him without feeling shy or awkward. "You said he got wasted last night...I can't stop thinking he might have gone out to just have one night stand with a girl or do nasty things...that makes me feel disgusted and scared..."

"I don't think he would do that, especially since he loves you," he doesn't convince me. "He always told me that he's not that type of guy anyway, he wouldn't have sex with a girl just for fun, he wouldn't want to have a one-night stand or anything like that...he only did it once and it was...with two guys but that never happened again and...I know him...I know he wouldn't have sex with someone if he's in love...and in this case, I know he would consider it as cheating because he doesn't want to leave you."

All those words are suddenly brightening up my mood, that's a relief to hear them. "Really...? I thought there was something that he was hiding when he...broke up..."

"What do you mean?" he doesn't understand me but I get it off my chest. "I keep believing that he broke up with me...only because of me...like..." I remove my eyes from him. "I really feel like he used this stupid excuse because he just doesn't like me that much or...that physically...I'm not his type and he just realized it-"

"No y/n," he shakes his head and cuts my sentence short. "Seriously, I can promise you and swear on everything, he loves you more than anything and finds you hot as hell. It really is because of his guilt and how much Jisung manipulated him on that day."

"Sure...?" I look at him with teary eyes, the pain inside never leaving because of my stupid self. "Yes, sure y/n," he smiles at me and brings some cheer. "I never did this for one of his girlfriends...but this time...I feel like you both are a great couple that could last long. You're like the type of girl he needs, he can talk to you about anything he wants and never feel uncomfortable because he knows you think like him, he can also be clingy and never feel like he's too much with you...he feels good with you and I can see that you feel the same for him."

I nod to confirm his words but he doesn't take his eyes off of me. "What if...I get closer to you...? Just to make him jealous and regret what he did?" he suddenly lets out. This is maybe the idea he had to make Jungkook regret what he did.

I don't answer right away, finding this a bit mean given how Jungkook seems to be feeling lately. "That would hurt him..."

"I know but he hurt you when I told him to not do that only because of the damn Jisung..." he shows a lot of frustration regarding this mistake and break up. "And...he's been making me so mad that I want to make him open his eyes. His mother was hurt when she got to know he smoked and got wasted...he's being an asshole..."

He said he would not do that to his mother again, I feel like he seriously regrets what he did. "So yeah...I don't know..." he ruffles his hair but sighs loudly. "Whatever...I'm here to tell you that if you need someone, I'm there for you too. We didn't get to talk in private that much but that was pretty cool to be with you the other day..."

"Yeah...I liked it too," I tell him the truth about those short two hours we spent together. We both remain silent for some seconds, the sounds of the birds chirping filling our ears only. "Do you want me to come pick you up tomorrow?" he suddenly breaks this quietness but surprises me with a question I didn't expect to hear. "You have a driving license?"

"I do, I'm twenty-one," he affirms but links his hands together between his thighs. "I know...I failed last year so now I'm considered as a dumbass."

"No...that's not what I meant by that..." I regret asking after this answer. "You're not dumb just because you failed. That can happen. I just wanted to know."