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chapter 46 | My Cure

"Stay with Mino," I avoid having her with me in case he could say I have something pretty serious so she listens to me and lets me walk in the office all by myself.

"It's nice to meet you Jeon Jungkook, " he closes the door, "You can sit down," and gestures me to take a seat before his desk so I do it and watch him getting on his comfortable chair. "Alright," he sets his eyes on his computer screen and remains silent for some seconds, typing on his keyboard. "So, this is the first time we meet so I'm going to ask you some questions in order to record your information and help me to know more about your current state, alright?" he gazes at me with a kind look but I nod.

"Perfect, let's just start with your age," he gets ready to type so I answer him. "I'm nineteen," I peek at his computer, curiously trying to look at the words he's entering in the file. "Your birth date?"

"First of September in two-thousand," I say. "Do you take some medications?"

"Uhm...no...just painkillers when I need to but nothing special," I shake my head but start to feel the unwanted questions approaching me. "Great," he acquiesces without taking his eyes off of the screen. "Do you use drugs or smoke?"

A sudden nervousness takes over me and I bring my hand up to my face, to cup the side of my neck and rest my arm on the chair. "I...I already smoked and took drugs but...I don't do it anymore..." I shamefully tell the truth but he now looks at me. "What kind of drugs?"

"Uhm...I can't remember..." I lick my lips. "MDMA...and...GHB..." I don't dare to put my eyes into his. "How many times and what dose?"

"Maybe three times but I was with some friends and...I didn't know what I was doing...I can't remember the dose at all...I just know it was pretty strong..." I don't hide anything since I don't want to lie. "Alright," the sound of his keyboard echoes through the white and grey room. "And what did you smoke?"

"Simple cigarettes...but that was just from time to time once I was feeling too stressed so...it maybe happened around five times...not more..." I gulp down while doing my best to recall that stuff. "Okay. You said you don't do it anymore so, when did you start to get curious about the drugs and all? Did something cause you to want to consume it?"

I rub my fingers on my throat without controlling myself but keep my eyes low. "It started when the ex-husband of my mom left us for the second time...I was around fifteen and was influenced by my friends and girlfriend...I was...angry and not myself so..." a moment of silence follows my doubtful words. "So...yeah..."

"And when did you stop taking drugs?" he doesn't change the subject but keeps on talking about this. "I once was on one of them but consumed a lot of it to have a better effect when I was with my girlfriend at her house but...when I woke up...I saw my mom was crying because she was worried and scared...she told me she found me unconscious in my bed and thought I would not ever wake up again..." my eyes get filled with water, a tight knot hurting my throat. "At that moment...I regretted what I did because I realized I was just selfish and not caring about how my mom was feeling...she was hurt too but I only cared about myself and the way that guy destroyed our life...so I stopped for good and never tried again..."

He doesn't say anything now that I ended my sentences, recalling clearly the way I felt at that moment exactly. "You never took drugs again after that, right?"

"Yes, I never did it again," I clear my throat to not let myself cry in front of him. "How old were you back then?" his voice softens as my words must have taken him aback. "I was still fifteen..."

"Hm..." the sound vibrates through his throat, his hands still held together on his desk. "Did you smoke after this?"

"I stopped till...some days ago...but...I just smoked one cigarette..." I rub my eyes and erase the tears that were about to be shed. "I won't do it again. I want to change and be someone good from now on, I don't want to hurt anyone I love again so I won't do anything like that anew."