Ch 7

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Caitlin pov
As I stared at her in shock a streak of red lighting appeared.
"Caitlin!" Barry exclaimed with a lifeless looking Martha in his arms. I glanced at Dawn before lifting myself up from the floor and snapping into Doctor mode.
I will not let Martha die!
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After a couple of hours, I managed to stabilize Martha, I have her sedated for now and looking at her so broken makes me want to burst into tears
"How is she doing?" Barry asked softly entering the medbay.
"She's going to be alright" I whispered gripping her hand in mine.
"I'm sorry Cait" Barry whispered.
"I should've known when she came to see me a week ago for a for a refill in her anti-depressants prescription" I sighed in frustration looking at her fragile state.
"You can't blame yourself" Barry said.
"How can I not? She overdosed on a prescription I gave her!" I said harshly running a hand through my hair while looking away from her.
"I can't be here right now. Let me know if she wakes up" I said feeling my chest tightening.
I gave her one last glance before turning on my heel and walking out.
"Cait" Barry whispered walking behind me.
"Please Barry! I can't talk to you right now" I said as my hands began to shake.
"Cait just slow down" Barry said using his speed to stand in front of me.
"I can't! I can't slow down Barry! The second I do everything will crumble down!" I yelled desperately.
"Dad?" Dawn asked from behind me in concern.
"Dawn please leave, I don't want you in here right now" Barry said looking at her.

"Dawn please leave, I don't want you in here right now" Barry said looking at her

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"Dad her hands" Dawn whispered and I look down to see what she was talking about.
"Frost?" I asked in panic.
"It's not me. It's you Caitlin. You're overwhelmed and you're losing control" Killer Frost clarified a hint of fear in her voice that she tried her best to mask for my sake but I heard it.
If Frost is scared then I should be too.
"Dawn go!" Barry warned in a fatherly tone.
"I'm not going anywhe–" Dawn spoke.
"I SAID GO!" Barry said sternly and I could hear Dawn walking away.
"Cait you're having a panic attack" Barry said softly
"You think I don't know! I'm a Doctor Barry!" I said glaring at him.
"Let me help you, okay?" He asked slowly approaching me while I took a couple steps back.
"I don't need your help, just stand back while I get this under control, I don't want to hurt you" I whispered
"I'm fast remember" Barry said softly.
"I'm cold remember? Speed and cold don't mix" I said angrily.
"I'm sorry for forgetting what today meant for you. I'm sorry I forgot about Ronnie, Cait!" Barry said guiltily.
"Don't say his name!" I said choking on my own tears.
"Why didn't you come to me?" Barry asked pain obvious in his features.
"Because I didn't want to okay? I'm so tired of crying, of feeling so helpless, I'm tired of always carrying this burden on my shoulders" I cried.
"Then let me help you carry it" Barry whispered walking a couple steps closer.
"No! This is my fault! All of it from Ronnie dying all the way up to his mother being sedated in my lab" I cried.
"Ronnie wouldn't want you blaming yourself" Barry whispered softly.
"RONNIE ISNT HERE!" I yelled angrily falling to my knees and covering my face with my hands.
"I know Cait. I know" he said as he sat next to me and wrapped his arms around my shoulders.
"Please just leave" I said pulling away from his embrace.
"I can't. You're my family Cait" he said hurt by my rejection.
"No I'm not. I'm your friend. I don't have a family" I whispered bitterly.
"And I never will because the men that I was meant to spend the rest of my life with is gone and is never coming back!" I said feeling my blood boiling.
"Cait–" Barry said before I rudely interrupted him.
"No! Listen! You don't get to stand here and tell me that everything will be alright when it's not! You don't get to stand here and tell me I'm 'family' when we both know you would change the timeline in a heartbeat if it has anything to do with IRIS! You created FLASHPOINT Barry! You changed everybody's life just so Iris could have a second chance." I yelled angrily.
"You know how fucked up that is? You don't think I've wished to start all over so that MAYBE I could have a chance at a decent life? So that maybe I could have a family of my own with a man that I love? You don't care about anyone else when it comes to Iris. And I think deep down we both know the truth." I said looking at him utterly heartbroken.
"I'm sorry Flash but Caitlin asked me to take over. Please don't follow her or she will freeze your ass" Frost said for me as I made her take over.
I can't face Barry anymore. I need to start learning how to let him go for my sake.
"What about Dawn?" Frost asked me.
"I can't even begin to process half the things that have happened today" I said exhaustedly.
"I'll be damned. We have a daughter Caitlin. That's about the craziest shit I've heard" Frost said.
"Me too Frost" I whispered.
"I guess speed and cold do mix after all" Frost suggested cockily.
"Oh shut up" I said my heart clenching at the thought.
I have a child...with Barry?

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