Reylo headcanons and oneshots

Oneshot #5

Thank you so much if you are reading this. It means a lot to me. The song is Fix You by Coldplay, and this is the first time I have included a song in my writing. It is set before RoS.
Rey's POV

I sit in silence, my heart breaking. He said he couldn't turn. He was Kylo Ren, and that was all he would ever be. 

His parting words 'I'm sorry I gave you false hope' are still ringing in my ears. Ben just shattered my heart, and I am not sure why it hurts so much. Tears burn my eyes, and I make no effort to stop them from falling. 

Wallowing in my grief, I hear a tune begin to play. It is slow and matches my mood perfectly. I memorise it quickly, and start to sing:

When you try your best but you don't succeed.
I failed Ben. I failed Leia, and Han and Luke. But most of all, I failed Ben by not bringing him home.

When you get what you want, but not what you need.
I want Ben to be safe, but I need him to be beside me.

When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep.
I have not slept for two days, but every time I try, my mind is filled with thoughts of Ben.

Stuck in reverse.
I feel a familiar presence behind me, but I don't acknowledge him. I just keep singing, all my emotions pouring out.

When the tears come streaming down your face.
I am probably the only person who has ever seen you cry. It made you so vulnerable, it hurt me inside. I would have done anything to take your pain away. I still will.

When you lose something you can't replace.
I allow Ben to access my thoughts, not caring anymore. I hear a sharp intake of breath, but I just keep on singing. He needs to know how I feel. Nothing else matters.

When you love someone, but it goes to waste.
I refuse to let my connection to Ben go to waste. I love him too much. We have already wasted so much time. He is silent behind me. I think he is shocked by how I am laying my heart down for him to see. I have never let him in before.

Could it be worse?
Nothing can get worse. He broke my heart into a thousand pieces. The only way this could get any worse is if he died. But I refuse to think about that.

Lights will guide you home.
They will guide you to me. Come home to me. We belong together. We make each other stronger. I hear Ben gasp again, and I take a small step towards him.

And ignite your bones.
Ben puts a tentative hand in my shoulder. I feel sparks where he is touching me, as thiugh sparks are going off inside me.

And I will try to fix you.
I will try to mend your broken heart. We can help each other. You just have to let me in. My breathe hitches as Ben wraps his arms around me from behind. I relax instantly. I can feel that he is hurt, but moved by my thoughts and lyrics. After a brief pause, Ben carries on singing the song. I can feel his chest vibrating against my shoulders.

High up above or down below.                                                                                                        
He opens his thoughts to me, and I focus on what he is telling me.

When you're too in love to let it go.
He loves me back! Ben keeps pushing me away, but always comes back. I hear him tell me I am too important and special.

But if you never try you'll never know.
Wait, what? Ben wants to give us a go?! I never thought this day would come. His arms tighten around me, and his breath is warm on my neck.

Just what you're worth.
I hear his thoughts as though they are my own; 'You are worth more than the galaxy Rey. I was just too ignorant to see it.' My heart melts as he thinks this. I slowly turn around to face him, my eyes firmly in the floor.

Lights will guide you home.
I wrap my arms around him, pressing my cheek to his chest. I hear him think 'Your home is wherever you make it, Rey.'

And ignite your bones.
'First Jakku, then Ach-too, now Yavin 4. I will follow you wherever.'

And I will try to fix you.
I finally raise my gaze to meet his. His eyes are shining with unshed tears. I quickly wipe them away, because I know if he cries, I will cry. I take half a step backwards as the tempo increases, and start to sing again, this time with Ben.

Tears stream down your face.
There have been many emotional moments between us, but none of them the right emotions. Too much anger, sadness, and fear. No enough love.

When you lose something you cannot replace.
'Rey, you are irreplaceable. There is no-one in the galaxy as brave, amazing or powerful as you.'

Tears stream down your face.
This time I let a tear fall. Ben notices immediately and wipes it away with his thumb. He is so close I can barely breathe.

And I.
Then Ben takes a small step back, offering his hamd to me. I almost smile, and take his hand.

Tears stream down you face.
Before I process what is happening, we are dancing and singing around my hut.

I promise you I will learn from my mistakes.
That line holds so much meaning for both of us. We have made many mistakes, but the biggest one of all was pushing each other away.

Tears stream down your face.
As Ben spins me round again, I can't help but smile. He is the one who broke my heart, and he will be the one to fix it. I can feel it.

And I.
The music slows down again, and we stop dancing, too out of breath. Suddenly, it's just us and the music. I stare into Ben's eyes, willing him closer.

Lights will guide you home. And ignite your bones.
There are sparks between us, we both felt it the first time we connected.

And I will try to fix you.
As the song ends, Ben closes the gap between us and presses his lips to mine. I am taken by surprise at first, but soon I am kissing him back, pulling him closer to me. When we finally break apart for air, both of us are smiling.

 In that perfect moment, I realise we have fixed each other. Ben broke my heart, but now he has fixed me. Just as I have fixed him. Together, we are unbreakable.

Edited: 27/1/21