Reylo headcanons and oneshots

One-shot #2

Thanks again to l0nelyish for giving me this idea!

'Rey!'

I look up in surprise as Finn and Poe come running towards me. I had just finished training for the morning, and was looking for Ben.

'What is it?' I ask as they come to a halt.

'You gotta come quick. Ben- he's... well... not doing well.' Poe pants. I'm off like a shot before he can even finish that sentence. Looking around, I spot a cluster of people in the command base. Heading towards them, the sea of people party as I try and get through. On the floor in front of me, curled up like a baby, was...

'Ben.' I breathed. Skidding to my knees beside him, I pulled him into my arms as he sobbed. 'Shhhhhh, it's okay now, I got you.' I try and comfort him.

 Looking up, eyes flashing, I glare at the crowd of generals.'Can someone tell me what happened?' I ask, my voice dangerously quiet. The generals shuffle around a bit, until one steps forward.

 'Well you see,' He starts. I dislike him immediately. His voice is cocky, and he walks with almost a swagger. 'We were discussing tactics on how to send our message to the outskirts of the galaxy, and Kylo Ren here had no ideas. So I asked what Han and Leia would have done-' 

There is an intake of breath as he finishes speaking. He must be new, for everyone found out pretty quickly that I was not taking crap from idiots who just never knew when to keep their mouth shut. He probably knew about Ben's parents and how sensitive the subject was. I look down at Ben once more, and see red.

 Pulling my saber out, I ignite it and hold the flamkng tip a centimetre from his throat. 'One more word and you'll never speak again' I threatened in a low voice. He nodded, the tough guy attitude forgotten. I released him, and for a split-second he lookes smug, when I whirled around and punched him in the face.

Turning away from the unmoving heap on the floor, I turned my attention back to Ben. He was shaking and sobbing silently. Nodding and Finn and Poe, they helped me haul him to his feet and half-carried him to my house. Depositing him on the bed, they both left quickly. I think they were worried I would unleash my anger on them. I stroked Ben's hair away from his face as he whimpered.

 'Hey, its okay.' I soothed him. 'What happened? I know what he said, but why did you break down? I get that you miss them; we all do, but why...' I trail off, unsure how to finish. Wiping his eyes, Ben sits up and looks at me. 

'Whenever someone mentions my parents, it reminds of countless moments that I spent wishing I had chosen Light. If I had, they would both be here right now. It's my fault they're dead.'

He collapses, sobbing, his head on my lap and his hand gripping mine so tightly his knuckles are white. Using my free hand, I smooth back his sweat-soaked hair away from his face. Wow, he was really worked up this time. On previous occasions when someone mentioned Han and Leia, Ben had gone white and excused himself. I'd always gone after him, and found him crying. All it has taken was a cuddle to get him back to his normal state.

It's my fault their dead. That phrase echoed in my head, again and again. Until it clicked. 

'Shut up.' I told him. Ben looked at me in shock. 

'But-'

'No buts.' I told him firmly.' You did not kill your parents. That was Kylo Ren. You chose to leave him in the past. If you hadn't, Ben Solo might not be here.' Ben looked a little more reassured, but still had tears in his eyes. 

'I still killed Han Solo. My own father. I never saw much of them when I was a child, because of Luke's training camp. And then I killed him as well.' 

Shaking my head, I interject 'Luke chose to die. He was old, and sacrificed himself so that we could escape. He knew what he was doing.' 

'But Leia reached out to me. In that, I killed her. She tried to turn me, and died. Han tried to turn me, and died. Luke tried to turn me, and died. You turned me, and survived. You are the strongest person I know, Rey. I just regret...' he took a deep breathe, as though steeling himself for what he was about to say. 

I smiled gently at him, promting him to go on. Squeezing my hand for support, he said'I regret killing my dad. I could have spared him, and just injured him. I wanted to, but...' He trailed off, looking guilty. 

'The emperor would have killed you.' I realise, finishing his sentence.

Ben nodded, my own heat breaking slightly in sympathy for what he had to endure with my grandfather.

 'Oh Ben.' I murmur, leaning forward to gently press my lips against his. His free hand moved to cup my face as he pulled away.

'What would I ever do without you?' Ben sighed, pushing a strand of hair behind my ear. I grin, despite the situation. 

'You'd probably be dead.' He nods sitting up properly. 

'I'm sorry.' He mumbles, but loud enough so I can hear him.

 'What are you sorry about?' I ask him in astonishment. 'You've done nothing wrong. The only person that's done anything wrong is that ass of a general.' 

Raising his voice, Ben says angrily 'Yes I have done something wrong. Dammit, Rey. Here I am, complaining about not spending time with my family and killing them, when you don't even remember yours.' A single tear rolls down his cheek, and I brush it away. 

'You have nothing to apologise for.' I tell him fiercely. 'I love hearing about other people's families. Yours especially. It helps me pretend I have some memory of my own.'

I take a deep breathe. I have never said that aloud before. Ben sits motionless for a long moment, and just when I'm about to stand up, he pulls me closer to him. Burying my face on his chest, he kisses the top of my head. We sit like that for a while, in complete silence. I open my thoughts to him, and he does the same thing. The same thought is running through both our heads.

We have both lost our families, but I will be your family now.

Sorry this took longer than expected to write! I normally write on the bus to school and it only a 15 minute journey. Hope you enjoyed! Comment any ideas please. I will either turn them into a headcanon or a one-shot.

Heads up: I am updating Hiccstrid one-shots sometime this weekend.