Love Is Not Over {Editing}

N.O. continued

[A/N: There is a ridiculous amount of swearing and verbal abuse in this chapter.]

"I can't do this anymore Jenna" he repeats.

"What-what do you mean?" I whisper.

"Jen it's just too much! I have been patient with you and I have waited and waited and ugh. I am a man. With needs. Like what the fuck? It's been three years and we still haven't had sex! What kinda bullshit is that?"

I can only stare at him blankly as I try processing this sudden outburst.

"Adam you know that's not fair. I have my issues with intimacy and being intimate.. I told you about this early on. You were fine with it for so long. I- I don't understand what changed all of-"

"I did. I changed!" he spits out.

"I know I kept saying everything was okay but I never meant it. It was fine when we first started dating but now..do you know how stupid I look in front of my friends knowing that they get p*ssy left and right and here I am stuck with the same girl from highschool who barely shows interest in fucking."

My eyes widen in disbelief. I am overwhelmed with feelings of shock, disgust, betrayal, and at least a dozen other inexplicable emotions.

"Wow are you kidding me?!" I cry out. "This is all because of your stupid ego? You would rather impress your friends than be understanding of my decisions and wait patiently for me."

"That's the thing. I've been waiting. For three years Jen! And I'm starting to think something is wrong with you. Are you really okay with being a twenty one year old virgin?"

My heart drops into the pit of my stomach and tears stream down my cheeks.

"I've already told you, I just need more time. I have- It's not easy...I told you before.."

The words are on the verge of escaping my lips yet I hold my breath. Why can't I be completely honest with him? Why can't I admit the real reason for my lack of intimacy? Why can't I share my trauma with him?

"No. You haven't fully told me. You always say there's a reason but you've never told me the actual reason. What is it? For the love of god what is it! Are you not attracted to me? Are you a lesbian?"

I let out a dry laugh. "You are so ridiculous. I can't believe we are even having this conversation. Can we just talk through this. Calmly. And without any drastic claims?"

Ignoring what I said he asks "Is there someone else?"

I avert my eyes from his gaze at his question. My mind instantly thinks back to the moment with Jimin last night. The warmth of his plump lips cushioned against mine and the way his hands lingered down my back as I trailed tender kisses down his neck. The heat rushes to my face and I almost forget that an infuriated Adam stands before me.

"No fucking way. It's that f*cking foreigner next door? This is complete bullshit!"

"Don't you dare talk about Jimin like that!" I bark back.

He narrows his eyes and his expression reveals utter disgust.

"Why so g*d damn defensive then?"

"He's one of my close friends and I am not going to let you disrespect him."

"Yeah real close I bet, you dumb bitch. Just tell me. How many times has he fucked you?"

"Shut the hell up Adam!"

"How. Many. Times."

"Never! We have never- we have not slept together. But- but we... we did make out once okay." I blurt out before realizing what I said.

He freezes and practically sends daggers at me with his glare.

"You fucking cunt! I fucking knew it." He lunges toward me and slams my back against the closet door.

I wince in pain and immediately cover my face with my forearms in defense. My heart beats faster than hummingbird wings as I anticipate the feeling of his fists against my skin.

Suddenly he lowers his hands and moves away from me. I open my eyes and see him smirking. I cannot believe his hostility and the sudden change in demeanor.

"This isn't even worth it anymore. You can run along with your new little boyfriend because I don't care. I've been fucking Yesenia for MONTHS so there's really no reason for me to be here."

My jaw drops.

"Yesenia?... As in your old coworker? The one who had a huge crush on you?" I rush over to him. "You piece of shit!" I yell. "You've been cheating this whole time? I trusted you. And you had your dirty dick inside that bitch."

"I guess that makes us both disloyal."

My blood boils and struggle to remain calm.

His smirk widens. "Oh and guess where I was last night? That wasn't my sister's voice you heard on the phone."

Without hesitation my palm makes clean contact with his left cheek and I spit at him.

He glares at me with rage and grabs my wrist with both hands.

I pull away, attempting to remove myself from his grasp but he manages to throw me onto the floor.

At that moment I hear a loud bang on the front door followed by a booming voice.

"Residential Security. We were informed about a domestic disturbance and are entering the apartment." and after a few clicks and turns two men burst into the living room.

"Sir, step away from the young woman." The first man says.

Adam looks down at me once more before shaking his head.

The second man rushes over to me and helps me up from the floor. "Ma'am are you okay? Is this man authorized to be here?"

"He was a guest..but he's no longer welcome.." I whisper.

The first security officer drags Adam out of my apartment and the second officer reassures me "We'll handle this ma'am." He pauses for a moment and continues "Is there someone who you would like to contact? For emotional support?"

I look at him with glossy eyes. "Thank you but I will be fine. I'll call a friend later tonight. I just-I'm okay."

"Of course I am just following protocol. And please do not hesitate to call us if he continues bothering you, I will personally respond to any disturbances."

In that moment I felt so alone and helpless. Without thinking I pull him into me and hug him tightly. He seems taken aback at first and then offers a gentle hug in return. "Please take care of yourself ma'am."

He closes the door and I am left with the silence inside my apartment and the loud remarks replaying in my head.