She is the one

Part 29.

Jasmine's POV

Still crying I run out of the hotel as suddenly I collide with two girls at the age around 15.
- Oh, sorry! - I say and sigh.
- Aren't you Jasmine? Shawn Mendes' girlfriend? - she says and I nod. I can't talk with them now, I have to go to Shawn. Fast.
- Why are you crying? Everything okay? - she asks and I cry even more.
- Sorry girls, but I have to go. - I say and rush into the taxi which is standing at the street. I can feel the flashes of the cameras behind me. Now rumors will take flight, great.
- To the hotel Pullman please. - I say trying to smile and the driver starts driving. We're driving in the silence as the driver starts to speak.
- Hey. I know it's non of my business, but is everything okay? - he asks me friendly.
- No, not really. I've got some problems with my boyfriend. - I say and look out of the window.
- Don't worry, everything will be alright. A man wouldn't let go a girl as you are voluntarily. - he says smiling and looks at me. I have to chuckle.
10 minutes later we arrived at the hotel and I give him the money.
- Bye and thanks again. - I say smiling slightly.
- Don't forget, everything will be alright. - he says smiling and I shut the door before he drives away.
All of sudden I start to cry as hell again. What if everything won't be alright again? What if our relationship is going to end? What if I lose Shawn, the love of my life? I couldn't handle it. But I have to be positive. Okay, let's go to Shawn and explain everything. I wipe away my tears again and start walking into the hotel. Oh god, I have to look like a monster with all the smeared mascara.
As I walk through the lobby everybody looks at me in a weird way. Yes I know I look really bad but I don't care at the moment. All I care about is Shawn. I broke his little heart, it wasn't my intention. I walk further as I stand ij front of our room. I take out my keys and open the door. I hope he'll forgive me.
I go in and close the door behind me, but I can't see Shawn.
- Shawn? - I shout and look into the bathroom, but he isn't here. I walk up to the bed and sit down as I see a piece of paper laying on the table. I get up and grab it to read it.
• I'm out with my guys, don't worry about me. Go to your love and do some nasty stuff as always. And btw, I won't cheat on you. Or can I call it cheating? I mean if two people aren't in a relationship and one of them sleeps with someone else is isn't cheating, is it? •
No, it can't be true. He doesn't meant it like he wrote it. I let fall the piece of paper and start to cry as I suddenly fall on the floor. Does he really want to break up with me? I'm so dumb! I should've never done this. It's all my fault. I'm losing the love of my life. I lost. I lost everything. I'm nothing but a stupid and worse person. I don't deserve Shawn. I've got a headache from crying and they're becoming worse and worse.
Suddenly I can hear someone knocking at the door, maybe it's Shawn! I stand up and rush to the door to open it, but it isn't Shawn.
It's Karen. I start to cry again in front of her.
- Hey honey, what's wrong? - she asks me and hugs me tight. She closes the door behind her and we sit down on the bed. I wipe away my tears again and look at her.
- Karen... - I say but I can't finish the sentence because of crying.
- Yes honey, what's wrong? - she asks and hugs me tight again.
- I think Shawn and I-I...we're not together anymore. - I say and I have to cry even more. It hurts to say this. I can see how her face gets a shocked expression and she don't know what to say.
- What? Why do you think that? - she asks worried.
- I made a mistake. A big big mistake. - I say and she pulls me more tight.
- Oh dear. Do you want to tell me? I'm here for you. - she says with a calming voice. I trust Karen, I really trust her. So I decided to tell her the whole story. Let's see what she thinks about it.
About 15 minutes later I finished telling her everything. I hope she understands why I've done this.
- Oh Jasmine... - she says and stands up to get us some water.
- I know it was a mistake, but I was so under pressure and I didn't know what to do. - I say and lay down my face into my hands.
- I can imagine how you feel and felt, bht can you imagine how Shawn has to feel right now? You broke his heart. - she says and sits down again.
- I thinks it's the best for today if you go to sleep now. Shawn is probably...to be honest I don't know where he could be and what he could do. But I just want to say that you two should talk tomorrow about it and get some rest for today. You look horrible honey. - she says and I thinks he's right. I really would like to wait till Shawn is back, but it could take hours. I thank Karen for everything and she gives me a kiss on my cheek and tells me that everything will be alright before she goes back to her room. Karen is just the best woman on earth, really.
I change my clothes and get some water again. I have to take a pill against my headache, they're so bad. After I tooked the pill I lay down in the bed and cover myself with the blanket. I hope he'll forgive me...