She is the one

Part 47.

Jasmine's POV

About a houndred emotions run through my body. I'm angry at Shawn because he just acted like a child, but I'm also more than sad that he doesn't trust me. Is the trust gone after the thing with Matt? I just don't hope so. I look at my watch as I finally arrive at the restaurant where Jordy and I wanted to meet. I look around me but I can't see him. Suddenly two hands close my eyes and I turn around.
- Jordy. - I say smiling slightly and he begins to smile as an idiot.
- Jasmine... - he says and hugs me tight.
- You look stunning! - he says chuckling and runs his fingers trough his hair.
- Thank you. - I say kind and he puts his arm around my wrist.
- Let's go inside.
We walk inside the restautant and take a seat. It was a awkward feeling that he put his arm around my wrist. Shawn does it always and I only want Shawn to do it, when Shawn does it it's amazing. And it's also weird that I can't focus on the time right now. I can only focus at Shawn. What he said...what I said. I don't want to go back to Shawn today, I guess he will still be mad at me, even though he hasn't got a reason for it. And I haven't see my family for a fer weeks, so I think I'll go back home today. Sounds good.
Suddenly Jordy pulls me out of my thoughts.
- Here, for you. - he says still smiling and gives me a glass of wine.
- Oh thanks. - I say smiling back and we take a sip.
- It seemed like you were lost in your thoughts. May I ask you if everything is okay?
He expression shows me that he's worried about me. That's kinda cute I have to admit.
I lay down my glass and lay back in the seat. Should I tell him? Doesn't matter if I shouldn't, I just do it.
- Not really. I had some problems with my boyfriend and I don't know what to do now. - I say trying to smile, even if I could begin to cry.
- Oh... - he says and takes my hand.
- Everything will be alright. I promise. - he says and looks me straight in the eyes. I smile at him and nod. I hope so.
Jordy pushes his head closer to mine and start to whisper something in my ear.
- Thank you for this amazing evening. I'm really happy right now.
I begin to smile too.
- I'm happy too. - I say kind and take my purchase.
Suddenly Jordy turns my head around to his and presses his lips on mine. I flinch and push his body away from mine.
- No! What the hell was that? - I say insecure and frightened.
- I'm sorry, I was just so happy. I could help but kissed you. - he says and tries to apologize.
- Was that just because of your happiness or do you feel something for me? Jordy, tell me. - I sas still frightened and grab my purchase.
- I don't know Jasmine. But please let us forget this. I hadn't done that.
He grabs my arm and wants me to forgive him. Maybe Shawn was right and overacted with a right reason. And I just acted childish.
- I don't know if I can forgive you Jordy. You know that I have a boyfriend and you just told me that everything will be alright between me and him...and now you kissed me? - I say and open the car door.
- I know and as I said I'm sorry. Please forgive me...
- I have to overthink this. Thanks for driving me home, bye. - I say and close the car door.
If I'd Shawn if I'd forgive him I wouldn't forgive him. I don't even know if I should tell Shawn. I don't think that this would be good.
I grab my keys and open the door of my house and go in. Suddenly someone hugs me tight.
- Hey Jasmine! I missed you lil sis! - he says and kisses my cheek.
- I missed you too Chris! Where are mom and dad? - I ask him.
- They're in the garden, we had a barbecue. - he says and takes my hand to pull me I to the garden.
- Without me? That's unfair. - I say and we both start to chuckle.
- Mom, Dad! Guess we have here! - he says and pulls me behind him into the garden.
- Oh honey! - mom says smiling and hugs me.
- Hey darling. - dad says and hugs me too.
- How are you? How was it? How is Shawn going? Tell us all about it!
Damn I missed my family, that's unbelievable.
- I'll tell you everything, but could I just came home first? Thanks. I haven't see you in weeks! - I say chuckling and sit down on the table.
Suddenly my phone rings and I get a message of Shawn.
•Hey babe. I know that you're still mad at me about the things that I've said to you today and that's why I wanted to apologize. I'm so sorry, I overacted and said things I shouldn't have said to you. I regret this a lot and feel bad. Please forgive me... And I wondered when will you come home? Just wanted you to know that I love and miss you.•
And now I feel bad because he apologizes to me but he was right the whole time. I should apologize, not he. Nevertheless am I still mad at him. He called me slut and said that he hates me. Those words hurt me a lot. And yes I know that I also said rude things to him, like that while Hailey, but I think they're not aa rude as the words he said to me. I don't know when I'll talk to him about this. But right now I don't want to. I decided to text him back.
•Not today, see you later.•
Okay, maybe this message was a little bit vicious but these words hurt me a lot and I don't want to talk to him about hi.
- Everything okay? You look kinda concerned. - Chris says and lays his arms around me.
- No, not really. But I don't want to mom and dad to know about this. They just would make it more worse than it already is. - I say trying to smile.
- You can tell me later when we're alone. What about a overnight party among siblings? - he says chuckling.
- Sounds great. - I say and lay down my head on his chest. He kisses me forehead and makes me feel better. I'm so glad I've got a big brother. I love him so much, he's always there for me.