She is the one

Part 32.

Jasmine's POV

Right now I'm listening to the song "Goodbye my lover" by James Blunt. This song ist so emotional and speaks the words I don't want to except.
Shawn was and still is the one for me, I'll never stop loving he. To be honest I don't even know how to live further without him. Still crying I wipe away my tears again and look outside the window.
Suddenly the pilot starts to speak trough the microphone.
- We will land in Toronto at any moment. Please sit down and strap on, I wish you a nice landing.
I put away my headphones and get ready for the landing. The landing and the start are definitely the worst things at a flight I guess.
About 15 minutes later I'm out of the plane, back in my hometown. Yes, it's a great feeling to be back at home, but it hurts that I'm alone here. Without Shawn.
I walk out of the airport where my best friend is already waiting for me. I wrote her that I'm back home and if she could pick me up and so she does. She's the best.
- Jasmineee!! Welcome back!! - Sophie screams smiling brightly and runs towards me. Uhm maybe I haven't told her that Shawn and me aren't together anymore yet. Sophie hugs me  tight and looks at me with her 'Oh no what wrong' expression after. Tears are rolling down my cheeks again and I wipe them away.
- Ey honey, what's wrong? What happened? By the way where's Shawn? - she asks me and looks me straight in the eyes. I say nothing, I just look at her.
- Oh no... - she answers and hugs me again. Suddenly I can't keep myself up any longer and break down, but Sophie holds me up.
- It's my fault, it's all MY fault. - I say crying and we walk up to her car where I sit down on the passenger seat. Sophie puts my suitcase on the backseat before she sits down on the driver seat next to me.
- Okay honey, I know what we'll do now. We'll drive home to me, take a lot of ice cream and handkerchiefs and then we'll talk about all what happened. Okay? - she says wiping away the tears from my cheeks and smiles slightly.
- Yeah okay. - I say trying to smile slightly.
Sophie nods and starts driving. Oh god I missed this city and I missed Sophie, even though I was only about a week away. I haven't told my parents that I'm already back yet. I need some time for myself right now and they would only ask me a houndred of questions.
About 20 minutes later we arrives at her house. Yes, I really mean her house. Her parents found another house on the side of Toronto and because she's already 18 she is allowed to live alone in it. She's alone and has a house for herself, if that's not incredible I don't know what se is!
I take my suitcase and walk behind her to the front door and she opens it.
- You can lay down your suitcase here. Feel like home bestie! - she says chuckling and I smile slightly at her and thank her. I take off my shoes and jacket and go to the kitchen where she's already standing.
- Okay, change of plans. I'll order pizza. After that we can eat ice cream. - she says chuckling and calls the pizza sercice.
- You're the best. - I say smiling.
Wow, wait? What that a smile? It was the first right smile from me after the stuff with Shawn. Sophie makes me happy, Iove her.
I sit down on the couch and look at the photos on the wall of her living room. They're pics of Sophie and her boyfriend, they're already about 2 yers a couple and they love each other as on the first day.
That's incredible.
I get lost in my throughts again and pictures of Shawn and me appear in my head. Can someone please stop this, it hurts so much!
- The pizza is on its way! - she says chuckling ans sits down next to me. I smile back at her. She turns on the Tv and opends Netflix.
- Here. You decide what we'll watch. - she says and gives me the remote control. She stands up and gets us something to drink and as she comes back she smiles at me. She's the best friend ever, really.
- So, what did you chose? - she says and drinks something.
- The Vampire Diaries. - I say chuckling.
- Uhh, good choice. We can talk about how hot Damon and Stephan are. - she chuckles and I have to laugh.
- I love you. - I say and hug her.
- I love you too Jassy! - she says smiling.
*Ding Dong*
- Oh, that must be the pizza! I go. - she says and walks to the door to take the pizza.
- Wow, the pizza guy was cute. - she says smirking.
- But Chris is cuter, huh? - I say chuckling.
- Of course, he's the cutest. - she says smiling and gives me one of the pizzas. I thank her kindly and she turns off the Tv again.
- Well, we got pizza and ice cream. Oh and lots of handkerchiefs. Now tell me about your problems. - she says before she takes a bite of her pizza.
- Alright. But I promise I'll cry. It hurts so much. - I say and she looks at me.
- No problem, that's normal. And for that we've got the handkerchiefs. And you've git my shoulder! - she says and I have to smile slightly. I begin to tell her the story and the more I tell her the more I have to cry. Awful.
After about 10 minutes I'm ready telling her the whole story and I already needes about 1000 handkerchiefs.
- Oh darling... - she says and hugs me tight.
- I-I know. I didn't wanted to cheat on him and I haven't but he... - I say but she interrupts me.
- Hey hey hey, he needs time I guess. I really understand you but give him the time he needs and lets see. I bet he'll forgive you. - she says. I nod and wipe away all the tears.
- And nooow lets watch some episodes of the Vampire Diaries and eat the ice cream before we go to bed. - she says and turns on the Tv again.
- You're right. - I say and lean back.

>About 2 hours later<

We watched Netflix since now and talked whole time about Stephan and Damon. It was a good deflection, the best. We get up and she shows me the room where I can sleep. I thank her kindly and lay down in the bed. I hope I'll get over it, even though I'm just thinking about Shawn. By the way I don't even know if Shawn already deleted our pictures etc, lets see.
I grab my phone and turn it on, I've got some messages.
Sophie: I'm here now and wait for you.
Mom: Hey Jasmine, how are the vacations? We miss you here.
Laura: Hey it's Laura. I wondered if you could sent me the stuff from ethics? I can't find them anymore and I need them for leaning, thanks!
Wow, but I haven't got a message from Shawn. I open my WhatsApp and see that Shawn changed this profile pic. It's not him and I anymore, it's now him and a blonde girl. Damn she looks like a model.
I close WhatsApp again and open Instagram and I got tagged in over 1000 pics etc. What the hell? I scroll down and I got tagged in pictures of my crying, of me sitting alone in the plane, of me walking alone on the streets worth my suitcase and all those stuff. All the captions are like:
What happened between Shawn and Jasmine??
Did they broke up?
Why is she crying?
Omg is Shawn single again?? I hope so!!
Did Shawn hurt her?
No, Shawn didn't hurt me. I hurt him.
Shawn unfollowed her and deleted all the pics with her, why??
Wait, what? I search Shawn's profile and open it. I'm shocked. He really deleted all of out pictures and unfollowed me. So this is really the end. I wonder if he already told his fans about out break up on Twitter, let's see. I open Twitter and search after new tweets from Shawn and he tweeted hours ago.
• As you can see I deleted all things with Jasmine and it has a meaning. We broke up but it won't change anything. I'm good and excited to show you all the new music that is coming soon. Love u guys xx •
So he really meant it? I can forget that he'll forgive me. He told his fans that we broke up. It feels like someone ripped out my heart and walks around on it.
I turn off my phone throw it through the room at the wall. It breaks. I begin to cry as hell and scream.
All of sudden Sophie runs into my room over to me and hugs me tight. She holds me and lays me down again. She lays next to me and still holds me tight. We say nothing, we just lay there and I cry like hell. I can't barely breath, I'm dying inside.