She is the one

Part 33.

Jasmine's POV

I guess I fell asleep yesterday while crying and breaking, my head hurts so much and there's a big emptiness inside of me. Something's missing and I know what it is, it's Shawn. I never was that broken and sad in my entire life.
Yes okay, I'm 'only' 16 and I still have so much life ahead of me but I already had some phases where I was unbelievably sad, but I never was as sad as I am now. I turn around to Sophie but she doesn't lies next to me anymore. I slowly stand up and pick up my broken phone form the floor to see if it's still working, but it isn't. I destroyed it because of sadness, anger and self-loathing. I lay it down on the table and walk in front of the big mirror on the other side of the room to look at myself and damn, I look really crappy. To be honest I'm afraid of myself right now, I never looked that messed up. But I guess that's what I deserve. I hope at least Shawn is okay. I run my fingers through my hair and fix them a little bit before I walk out of the room down the stairs to the kitchen where I think Sophie has to be.
- Sophie? - I ask while I'm walking down the stairs as I suddenly have to sneeze.
- Oh, you're awake! - she says suprised.
- Bless you! - someone says chuckling and I stop walking. I know this voice, it's familiar to me...oh no, it's her boyfriend Chris! He mustn't see me, not when I look like that!
- Are you coming? I made breakfast. - Sophie shouts asking.
- Uhm no, I'm not hungry! - I shout back and walk up the stairs again. You may think that I just said that because I don't want Chris to see me, but I'm not hungry at all. I don't want to do anything except crying. I walk back into the room and lay down on the bed again, my head is about to explode. I've got the worst headache and I'm just thinking about Shawn. What is he doing? Does he misses me? Is he fine? Is he even thinking of me? But I know the answers. No. Why should he miss me? I hurt him. A lot. I don't want to but tears are rolling down my cheeks again and my throat begins to hurt. Suddenly I come back to reality as someone knocks at the door and comes in.
Hell no, it's Chris! I grab the blanket and cover myself with it. I'm hidden unter a blanket because I look crappy, great.
- Hey, Sophie told me approximately what happened between you and your boyfriend. And I'm really sorry for this. I know that you're broken but I want you to know that I'm here for you, even though we don't know each other as good as you and Sophie know each other. - he says and sits down next to me.
- Thanks, that's very kind and I really appreciate it. - I say shyly.
- You can show your face, we're not strangers or something. - he says laughing and takes away the blanket.
- Oh Jassy, you lool horrible. - he says.
- I know, that's why I don't wanted you to see this. - I say. Chris smiles slightly and hugs me.
- Everything will be alright, I promise. Keep your head up Jassy, you're a strong girl! - he says and gets up. Suddenly Sophie comes in and gives me some breakfast.
- You have to eat something, please. - she says and looks at me with a worried face.
- By the way I'm going to do something with Chris, that means you have the run of the house the whole day. And if you need something or whatever just call me. - she says smiling and takes her jacket.
- Uhm... - I say looking at my broken phone.
- Oh right, I forgot. I've got a landline phone in the living room. Use this if you need too! - she says chuckling.
- Okay. Thank you and have fun! - I say trying to smile.
- Thanks. See you later!
- See you! - I say and Sophie and Chris went out of the room and close the door behind them. Great, I'm alone the whole day. What I'll do? I don't know to be honest, I have no clue. Maybe just watch some Netflix and cry.
10 minutes later I get up and walk down into the kitchen where I look at the clock for the first time today, it's already 1:43pm. Dang it. Okay, I'll watch some Netflix and cry the hell out of me, what else should I do? I have to clean my soul.
I grab some packages of handkerchiefs and lay down on the couch before I turn on the Tv and starr the series.
Suddenly the doorbell rings and I get up to open the door. Maybe Sophie forgot something, but she has her keys. Did she forgot her keys? No, they aren't here anymore. Wait...who else could it be?
I don't really care how I'm looking right now, I mean nobody of this district knows me. I walk up to the door and open it, but because of shock I close the door immediately again. My broken heart stopps beating for a moment and I get dizzy...