HIDEOUT: LEE TAEYONG

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soyoung

"this hurts like fucking hell!" donghyuck cried after being placed down the floor. i could tell he was trying his best to stay silent so the others wouldn't wake up from their relaxing sleep. i kneeled down beside him as i pressed the cloth against his wound, harder to secure that the blood won't continue gushing out. "fuck, s-soyoung don't press harder... it hurts." he gulped.

"you know i have to, i can't let you bleed to death."

i turned my face to look at jungwoo, he seemed so frightened. "jungwoo, can you wake up sicheng? i heard from jaehyun that he studied for medical school. i'll stay here and keep an eye on donghyuck."

jungwoo nodded and turned his heel, but was stopped by the injured boy beside me. "no! don't, i don't want the others to wake up... we will be in trouble, in big trouble." donghyuck coughed, moaning out of pain and squeezing my hand tighter every time the pain continued hitting him.

"okay jungwoo just take the first aid kit." jungwoo obliged my words and immediately left the class, i could hear his heavy footstep echoing through the hallway.

as soon as i turned around to face donghyuck once again, i couldn't help but feel a severe pain stab my heart. he laid there, his head resting on the wall and i got so anxious after noticing how pale his lips and skin were. he can't die like this, i can't let him die because of me... because i wanted this stupid bracelet, i feel selfish. i should've forced them to stay here, this is all my goddam fault.. yes this bracelet protects me, but not those people who i am with. i'm so naive, so stupid.. if donghyuck dies, then the blame would go on me and i wouldn't really defend myself, it is my fault.

"i'm sorry." i said making donghyuck turn his head to eye me, his eyebrows knitting together with a scowl on his lips. "what? shut the fuck up don't apologize it's not your fault."

i know his response was curt and aggressive, but i was surprised he wasn't agreeing that it was my fault.

i didn't know what else to say, shall i speak? i can't bear to hear donghyuck's shaky breathing with the slight whimpers blending in.

if the others sees this, i am in total danger. they would murder me, knowing that i've put donghyuck in that position, a big possibility that i would be kicked out this hideout. honestly i'm okay with it, what worries me more is being yelled... specifically by taeyong. i can imagine him curse at me, shout at how i broke the rules.

ahh i don't wanna see that side of taeyong.

i don't wanna be attacked by sopa students.

i'm fucking screwed.

"here!" jungwoo was unexpectedly back, it took a little faster than i thought but i should really be grateful. jungwoo dropped beside me as he immediately opened the kit, his hands shaking while grabbing onto loads of medical supplies, question marks drawing around his head as he looked at me, completely puzzled. "how do i do this?!" he impatiently said.

i gulped, nervously staring back at him, i had no idea as well.

although i went to first aid classes with hana a few years ago, i was still slightly confused. we've been taught how to save someone, where bleeding, burns, poisoning, shock, and respiratory emergencies scenarios were included. we were also saving mannequin with the CPR method, honestly the only thing i remembered was how much their lips tasted like baby wipes.

"don't worry jungwoo, leave it up to me." i said as he crawled back and let me do the work.

once i poured down rubbing alcohol on the cloth, i watched how they absorbed and glanced at donghyuck who seemed a bit frightened. "fuck, just make it fast." he whispered, gritting his teeth and looking away.

i carefully grabbed the tip of donghyuck's shirt, slowly lifting it up but got startled when he warned me with a "don't expect me to have hot sexy abs."

i ignored his sayings and looked down at his wound, flinching at how much blood was gushing out. with no hesitation, i pressed the cloth with absorbed alcohol and listened to donghyuck scream.

"fuck!" his scream vibrated in my ears as his whole body quivered, the stab suddenly began to cover with some white clumps.

jungwoo handed me the bandage and i taped it on his wound, fortunately the blood stopped spurting, making donghyuck to sigh in relief.

"it's all done, it's... done."

...

"

you sure he should just stay here?" jungwoo asked, carefully placing donghyuck into a comfortable position, so he would be able to deliberately fall asleep on the floor. "yeah, he shouldn't really move anymore, i would stay here with him."

"i'll stay too then." jungwoo said making me smile. "you can just sleep, i'll be here too."

after that, i sat down on a chair and rested my head on the table. my eyelids slowly shutting off and finally, i fell into a deep sleep.