HIDEOUT: LEE TAEYONG

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soyoung

pretty much everyone forgot about me being an exception, but i was positive somin and dahye weren't. they were all focused about the ones who harmed donghyuck, changbin and jisung i remember... i've never heard of them, for now i just know they're bad people. maybe it's something that happened in the past.

sometimes i feel like melting in confusion when i'm in that room, they always argue and discuss about things that i was never familiar with... which was the reason why i left and went up to the rooftop, they've been discussing about this group where eventually jisung and changbin were included. i wouldn't blame them, if it's really important and dangerous i understand they don't have time to explain for me.

"am i invading your privacy if i join you?" an attractive voice appeared, knowing who it was made the atmosphere more peaceful.

"not at all." i smiled and felt taeyong stand beside me, both our elbows were attaching the metaled fence that protected us from falling.

this was probably one of the most pleasant place to be during the apocalypse, up here is calming... even though you can see the view, the chaos world, the breeze and air is there to make things restful.

"so, you must be very confused now soyoung." taeyong's words made me awkwardly laugh while my head nodded along. "very confused, i want explanations but it's fun if there's no time."

"no, i want you to understand everything.. i don't want to leave you confused, i want you to feel like you're part of this hideout, someone we trust and i hope you do." taeyong paused. "it's only dahye, somin and a bit donghyuck who has a problem with you, but please don't be bothered by it... just remember, i, lee taeyong the leader will trust you.. okay?"

i was touched. taeyong, saying those words to me was like a pair of soft and warm hands caressing my heart. now this, this taeyong is what i wanted right now.

"i didn't mean to cause any trouble, i wanted to protect donghyuck but i couldn't. frankly i wasn't quite worried when they held donghyuck captured with a dagger on his neck, i thought to myself.... they're humans, they're not those monsters... of course they wouldn't hurt him, but i was wrong." i paused and pressed my lips into a thin line, placing my chin on the fence while looking down at the shredded city. "how come humans be so cruel, when they know we're not the enemies... but they are, those filthy monsters."

taeyong merely sighed. was i being small minded, did that bother him?

"what i've learned from this apocalypse is, it's rare to see humans act like humans again. since surviving and living is important for them, of course they would only focus on themselves and the people they're with." taeyong paused. "people are starting to be more selfish, and frankly i would be too. if had food inside my backpack and saw other survivors, obviously i'll rather feed them to my people than some strangers, that can possibly do the same." taeyong's explanation made totally sense, but if you had to think about what happened to donghyuck... it wouldn't really.

"but don't you think stabbing someone is crossing the line?" i rose an eyebrow.

"yes, it is crossing the line." he paused and stared into my eyes, pondering about something. "it's probably best to tell you right now, before someone else does it and turns into a misunderstanding." i wasn't sure if i should feel relieved or scared, i'm happy he's finally being open but i can just feel something unsettling inside my whole body.

"everyone in this hideout was a part of a mafia, and i was the boss." taeyong seemed like he was expecting a surprised reaction from me, but not at all. "yes, we were criminals and had committed a lot of terrible and illegal crimes. i just don't want you to see us, to see me as a bad person."

i wasn't shocked at all, maybe because i had been reading too many wattpad fanfictions, it turned me on instead of scaring me. to be precisely, it just caused my cheeks to heat up. it felt like my life was just a movie, or a book. (sry to say honey it is.)

"it doesn't really matter taeyong, that was the past and i'm positive that the virus had changed everyone. i know you don't mean any harm to me" after flashing him a reassuring smile, he continued explaining.

"of course every mafia has enemies. the ones who harmed donghyuck, are our enemies and unfortunately there are more of them. i just have to warn you soyoung, if you ever see an unfamiliar face in this hideout, turn around and run. they seek for the one who have least knowledge about them, and that's you." taeyong's words kinda made me shudder, knowing i would be the target was very scary, insanely scary. i just have to be brave for now, continuing to think negative, it'll make me worse.

"hey." taeyong said with desperation for my attention, uncontrollably i glanced over at him who was slowly approaching me.

his hand began to travel up to my hair, softly stroking each strand until he tucked it behind my ear. his sudden action made me flinch back, my head immediately hanging down to prevent my eyes from looking into his. "look at me when i'm talking to you." he demandly said.

"stay safe for me, can you do that?"

did doyoung teach him this? i admit, he's making me flustered but i can't help but feel like my heart throbbing out of my chest right now. lee taeyong, stop!

"yes, i can do that for you." i spoke, barely a whisper which caused taeyong to smile out of satisfaction. "i don't know if this is too much to ask, but i want you to know how i would like to spend time with you... alike this."

taeyong is making me feel weird stuffs, i don't know if i like it or not. is he playing me, toying me? at this moment i really wish not, why do i want him not to? why do i enjoy this feeling? is he enjoying playing me? is he playing me? i'll get that answer sooner or later, for now i should control my feelings before they grow bigger and bigger.