FSA journals: Trapped in her own game

A partial change of heart

Serena (POV)

Exactly 2 weeks have gone by since I started dating Mitch, it seemed so virtual after all it was an agreement, he showed me a side to him that I never imagined could have existed, because he was mean and he was course and unrefined, there's  something new, I'm so unsure of my feelings ,  I wonder why I didn't see it there before .

We slowly became a real couple, holding hands, sitting together, walking together, stealing glances at each other in class. There was one line we hadn't crossed yet and that was an actual KISS, it seemed to early we were still getting to know each other . Everything was going on well, TOO WELL. I'm frightened it might all be over soon . He assured me of the opposite and said he's gonna try to make this whole relaysh work out . The next week during school announcement it was made known that our class was gonna embark on a field trip to the statue of liberty in New York in the USA .

I was so excited, I got home earlier than usual to get my things packed and my passport and other travel details checked, I need not ask permission, my parents always encouraged me to take part in school travels to expose me to new things .I simply informed them, they signed the permission slip and that was that . I promised myself I would keep myself grounded on the trip, no crazy outbursts , I couldn't let Mitch down, I stayed away from the guys and sat beside an old lady who was surprisingly really interesting. She spoke on her life and how she never got married instead traveled the world meeting new people and different cultures . She said she wouldn't change anything about her life, sitting here at 78 years old she regrets nothing .

Wow I hope when I'm at that age I'll have the good fortune of repeating that same sentence and mean every word of it .I hate flying, at least the part where the plane was trying to lift off . It sent a horrible chill down my spine and created a feeling of anxiety I couldn't shake of even when in the sky. Though that part was calming . When the plane landed, I bid farewell to my new friend . She made me follow her on instagram and promise to keep in touch with her via Facebook . She was so sweet and polite I couldn't refuse .

We fixed our papers at the airport and made our way to a hotel in Manhattan, New York where we'd stay the weekend . Mitch couldn't come, his uncle disapproved stating he wanted to keep a close eye on him . I was the epitome of a perfect Lady . I stayed in my room all day from the moment we landed despite the unbearable boredom. You have absolutely no idea how I struggled, the guys and a few girls were having a blast next door, I could hear the music from my room,It was pure torture but I stood my ground  .

The next day we went to  liberty island to see lady liberty , it was huge we must have looked like ants from above . I enjoyed it, it was so educative, I never knew the statue was a gift from the French. She was huge and beautiful,and so carefully sculpted.  It must have taken them decades to complete it   . Back at the hotel, my friends went for a party this time it was  in Talia's and her twin bro Talix's room . I couldn't  stand it, I controlled myself for days I deserve to have a little fun . I went with Roxy and Joan in our best we looked gorg i must say . Joan's twin sis Joanne was the quiet, deep type who spent all day with her friend Kayla discussing God knows what. The party was wild and I drank alil to much punch .I had no idea there was alcohol in it . I got drunk and lost control , party wild Serena was back and I had no control over my actions . I walked over to Mitch's gang of friends.

Terror couldn't help but drool,  I felt flattered so I sat beside him . The other guys looked at us disapprovingly with the" Imma tell on you" look. I couldn't care less, in fact it amused me . One thing led to another and Terror dared me to give him a lap dance . If I were of sound mind I would have slapped him silly but in this intoxicated state I agreed . After I did it,  I did some other stupid things that night I'm surely going to regret . The next morning as we boarded the plane back home, I wondered what the hell I'm going to say to Mitch, would he believe me or worse dump me? I had to tell him before those blubber mouths he called 'friends' opened their mouths . He had to hear it from me . But how was I gonna do it? .....

Author's note

Stay tuned, this ride is gonna get  seriously bumpy . Intrigue, action, drama . Stay tuned,  a word to the wise is enough 

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