after all this time?

seven-day trial

Lauren's POV

Okay, so after that memory you must have questions.

Yes, I was once in love with Camila. I'll explain. When we were in 5H I had a thing with Lucy, I'm sure you remember that. We dated, we broke up, we dated, we broke up, and it was that for a while. In one of the times we were apart, I started to ask myself if I really loved her or if I was just comfortable having someone every time I needed. Turns out I was just scared to be lonely.

Lucy and I stayed away from each other for a year, and it was enough time for me to see that all I wanted was right there, so close to me. It was Camila. I think I always loved her but when our fans started speculating I was too young, still on the closet, I couldn't deal with it, so I pushed her away.

I was going to tell Camila, I swear, but it was too late... all she could talk about were boys, she was falling in love and I knew I've lost it. In 2016 Lucy and I were back together and Camila left the group on December, close to the Christmas... I only broke up for good with Lucy a little later, on January, after the holidays. It wasn't fair to be with her loving someone one.

But as my mom told me, it all passed! In these eight years I fell in love again, I dated other people, I really had a lot of fun. My feelings for Camila were left behind.

- Lauren, you busy? - my dad asked from the door of my room

- No, why?

- Then let's go, I've been calling you! Lunch is ready!

- Oh, sorry dad, I was distracted.

I got up the bed and followed Michael downstairs, where everybody were waiting to eat.

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After lunch Taylor, Chris and I decided to go to the pool to enjoy the sunny day of Miami. I've been in LA for 3 years now, and it's nice but I miss moments like this, with my family. I'm so glad we're all on vacation, too bad it ends so quickly.

- Okay, wait wait wait! - I asked before Chris throw me the ball - I need a break

- You're only saying that because you're loosing - Chris said to me, we were playing volleyball on the pool and Tay was winning.

- He's right - Taylor agreed

- Girl I need to breathe!

I got out of the pool, sat on one of the beach chairs and took out my cell phone after drying my hands. I opened whatsapp, answered Alexa - she was taking care of Cleo, my puppy, while I was gone - and opened the 5H BITCHESSS group chat.

DJ: "Heyyyyy what are you doing rn?"

Ally: "Watching a movie called Parasite, have you seen it?"

Mani: "girl the whole world has seen it lol that's so 2020"

I went to the kitchen to get a cup of water, then came back to the chair and started typing.

Me: "Chris, Tay and I are playing volley on the pool. Well, they are, I'm sitting outside drinking some water lol"

Mani: "OMG, what a surprise to have you here Lauren! Since you only answer us once a week!"

I laughed hard when I read Mani's message, she was right.

Me: "sorry :( I'm working on it"

Should I tell them I've seen Camila? Or it's not the right moment? I know that will bring up a lot of memories we worked hard to forget... Maybe I should wait more.