after all this time?

3 years fits a suitcase

Camila's POV

Today I'm going to New York to get my stuff out of Shawn's apartment. This week was very slow, but finally passed.

- When are you coming back? - my dad asked me when I was closing my suitcase.

- I don't know, papa. I'll go back working very soon, I don't think I'll have time to come back on the next two months...

- Okay... but let me know, Karla. We miss you a lot when you leave

- I know dad, I miss you too

I gave him a goodbye hug and tried to not cry. He helped me to get the suitcase to the car and then I said goodbye to Sofi and my mom. It's always painful to say goodbye so they are staying at home, my dad will take me to the airport by himself.

My cellphone vibrated on my pocket.

Lolo: "let me know when you get there"

I smiled big. Lauren and I got even closer this past week, we called each other every day.

Me: "Okay"

Lolo: "don't forget it!"

I entered the car, leaving to a blurry future I can't really understand.

...

- Yeah, it's here

The driver stopped and I left the taxi after paying him, taking my suitcase with me. I looked up to the building, breathing deeply to find courage to get in.

- Okay, let's go Camila - I said to myself and got in, walking to the elevator and pressing the 8 button.

I stopped in front of the apartment's door and found my keys on my purse, finally opening it.

Everything was exactly how I left. Shawn was very organized, so nothing was out of place. I left my suitcase close to the door, went to the bedroom and started putting my clothes on a second suitcase I found on the closet. Shawn wasn't home, he knew I would be here so he left. That's probably better.

On social media everybody were speculating about our breakup since Shawn tweeted some mysterious messages, indirectly letting people know how much of a bitch he thinks I am.

After two and a half hours I finished packing my stuff.

- My whole life in these last 3 years fits in a suitcase... - I said to myself, thinking about how I reduced myself to fit Shawn's life.

- Still here?

I turned back to see Shawn standing close to the door.

- Yeah but I'm done. I was leaving

We stared at each other saying nothing. I wonder if things would be different if these photos didn't leak and I could talk to him in person.

- So it's really over? - he asked. - you are throwing away almost 5 years for a woman you have a crush on?

I took a deep breath.

- Shawn, let's not make things harder, okay?

- You're not thinking straight, Camila. Look what you're doing!

He was starting to talk louder.

- I know exactly what I'm doing. I don't think I've ever seen things so clearly

- I never liked that fucking bitch - he said referring to Lauren, sitting on the couch.

- Okay, now you're off limits. She has nothing to do with it, this is about you and I! I made that decision based on how my life was going, how I was feeling!