after all this time?

tired of saying goodbye

Lauren's POV

- Alright, I bought it

I was sitting on the kitchen table with my laptop in front of me, Camila was by my side.

- Next monday, then?

- Yeah...

Next monday I'll be flying to Los Angeles. I wish I could stay here for a little longer, but I can't postpone my work again.

I closed my laptop and went closer to Camila, holding her hands.

- We will find a way to see each other

Camila is also going back to NY next week, she has a short time to record her new songs and finish the album.

- I know, cariño. It's just... I'll miss you. I'll miss all of this

She looked around and so did I. These past days we bought some stuff to decorate the apartment, and now it looks even more like us. Like our home. It's been only ten days but we already have made so many memories on every corner of this place...

- I'll miss it too

I stared at the huge glass wall, the sky was turning dark blue and the city lights were making the view almost magical.

- Want to go somewhere? - Camila asked.

- Not really. I am exactly where I want to be

Camila smiled, touching my face slowly.

- I love you, Lo

- I love you too

The past five years I've met a lot of people. Some of them I kissed, some of then I had sex with, some of then I saw for a month or two. Nothing like Camila. None of these people made me feel whole, none of them made my heart warm, none of them gave me a key to an apartment and none of them ever heard these words come out of my mouth. It's like I've been keeping it to Camila... All this love, it's hers. It has always been.

...

- You promise you'll call me every night?

We were standing on the airport right where she left me months ago, when I went to LA and she stayed in Miami. It's all happening again.

- I promise you, cariño - I told her - but only when you can, alright? You have to focus on your album

- If I focus on my album I'm focusing on you, Lauren Jauregui

That's the first and only spoiler she gave me about the album. I've tried to make a deal, showing my new songs to her so she would show me hers, but she didn't do it.

- I'm dying to hear it

- You will, eventually

We stared at each other knowing that I have to go, but hoping that the time would pass slowly.

- I'm tired of saying goodbye - Camila said and came closer, giving me a hug.

- I know, cariño... I know. So we won't say goodbye, okay?

She looked at me with tears in her eyes. I tried to hold it so she wouldn't cry too.

- Will I see you again? - I asked.

- You absolutely will

I felt her lips on mine on a last kiss.

- I have to go... see you soon, Camz

- You better!

I turned back, holding my handbag, and went to gate 7, trying not to look back...