A quiet and dark hallway met me as I exited my room. I'm always at this room, its like it's my quiet place, I can relax, I can think and more.
"Happy birthday, Madame." I stopped walking when I heard what she said.
"I told you to stop calling me Madame. Just call me at my name. Okay?" I said at dumiretso na sa paglalakad. I was about to opened the door when she ask me again.
"Aren't you going to celebrate it?" Tanong niya. I just sighed at humarap sa kanya. I looked at her eyes.
"Why would I? I have something important to do."
"Is that 'something' more important to you than celebrating your birthday? It's your special day." She said.
'Special? Nothing's special! What's special about that? It's just a day!'
"Jillian, that 'something' is the most important to me. And It's just a day, lilipas din iyan." Sabi ko sa kanya pero kumunot lang ang noo niya. "You're right, it's just a day, so you should celebrate it, because it only happen once a year. That's why it's called ' pecial day' Trys---"
"When did you have a complaint in my life? Since when? I don't remember anything!" Tumalikod na ako at akmang bubuksan ang pintuan ng magsalita ako. " And it's Scarlett Nirvana not Trys-- whatever." Sabi ko at lumabas na ng pintuan. That room is just like my hideout, but I prefer it to be my rest room. And now I'm walking alone, I left her speechless.
Tsk! Birthday? A special day? Funny! Kailan ko ba huling ipinagdiwang iyon? Ah oo, 4 years ago.
It's been 4 years nang umalis ako sa bansang sinilangan ko, I have forgotten everything that happened before except for what happened to my family. I promised to myself that I will take revenge on them. Whoever that man is, I'm sure he'll experience what I had experienced before.
After I left the Philippines, and met 'them' I feel like, I was born again, I think I'm new now. Everything has changed.
Marami pa akong nalaman pagkatapos kong umalis ng bansa, para akong isang walang alam nun, pero nang malaman ko ang lahat, walang naging reaction ang buo kong katawan, para bang ini-expect na ng katawan ko yun.
Hayss, nevermind. Malapit na ako sa isang kwarto kasi pinatawag daw ako, seriously? Alam nilang may training ako ngayon tas ipapatawag ako. Geez!
"Happy 20th birthday Madame!. Yeah yeah yeah. " The greetings and the happy birthday song greeted me as I opened the door.
I was just looking at them, they're smiling and looks so happy. Are they putting a jokes on me?
"What is this all about?" I asked them and lean on the door.
"Hey, it's your day. Aren't you happy?" Xander asked me. I looked at his eyes. "What for? You should not waste some money for this kind of sh*ts!" I said. His eyes looked so sad after I said those words. Really? it affects him?
"We just wanted to see your smile, and we just wanted to celebrate it because you never celebrate it anymore. And we just wanted to see you happy again.."
"Xander, How many times do I have to tell you that I-AM-HAPPY. Which of that words you do not understand? As your Sister, you should understand me." I said with no emotion. That's one of the revelation before, that he is my brother. Well I didn't expect that before. But I need to accept the fact the he is my relative.
"Just give it to others. I need to train harder." I said and turned my back on him. I was about to walk out when suddenly he speaks up again.
"It's been 4 years. You changed a lot. You never celebrated your birthday, you're not having a time for yourself and for us, you're always at the training. You're not smiling anymore, you have no emotions, and you look scary right now. It's like I'm in front of another Trysh... Don't you think you're too much now?"
"I didn't changed, I just grow up. And because I'm not Trysh at all."
"You are no longer the Trysh that we used to know."
"Because I am not that girl. I'm Scarlett Nirvana. Okay!"
I don't feel anything. I don't feel anger, I don't feel the pain anymore, I don't know why? I just woke up feeling nothing.
Lumapit naman sa amin si Steven Chen. "Okay stop that. Baka umabot pa sa away ito. Ako nang bahala sa kaniya kuya Xander." Sabi niya at hinila na ako paalis dun.
Dumiretso kami sa Gym, siguro Hindi muna ako magte-training ngayon. I just need to exercise.
"Hayss, can you smile for me, Vana?" Bigla niyang Sabi ng pumunta ako sa chest press machine. Tumingin ako sa kanya at ngumiti.
He just laughed at me then look away. "I want to see you smile, but can you please put some emotion on your face. Parang pinipilit mo lang. Pero ang cute mo dun."
"Should I take that as a compliment?" I asked. "Of course. Bihira ka lang makarinig sa isang 'Steven Chen' ng ganyang line. Dapat kang maging masaya. Vana." He said.
"You're good at flattering yourself." Sabi ko at tinuloy na ang ginagawa ko.
"I'm your fiance for about 2 years, pero never ko pang nakita ang dati mong sides. I wonder, ano ka kaya noon?"
"Why are you wondering, of course I'm a human." Nakita kong Napa face palm na lang siya.
"Tatawa na ba ako?"
"I'm just telling the truth. As far as I know you're a genius man, but why are you wondering. That means, you're just a fake."
"Yah! Vana, I'm not fake, tsaka, nagtatanong ako ng maayos eh, tas namimilosopo ka.".
"I'm not a philosopher, I just answered your question. Stupid!" Sabi ko at tumayo na.
"Aba, sumosobra kana, Vana, di na ako natutuwa sayo."
"Did I told you to laugh?"
"Grr. Sumasakit ang ulo ko sayo."
Tumayo ako at dumukot ng pera sa wallet ko.
"Here, 60 thousands, look for someone to talk to." I said and leave him priceless.
"What the hell! VANA!!!"
I smirked, I need to rest. I was tired of talking to him. Why did I even talk to him at all? He just gave a headache.
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