Sincerely | k.th.

19. Wonder

I closed the diary after writing an entry and found myself staring into space. Jotting my memories on paper made me recall the night more. I don't think it's one I'll ever forget.

Still feeling the high from my night, I got up and walked over to the sliding glass door that lead out towards my beach view. The stars were still shimmering like diamonds in the raven sky and the wind breezed ever so lightly. I felt as if I was living in the midst of a fairytale, experiencing this calming wonder while being surrounded in such an aesthetic allure.

Giggling to myself, I began to wonder, isn't this when I meet my prince? Isn't he supposed to come in and sweep me off my feet in the still of the night? Taking me in his arms as we ride off into the shadows to live happily ever after.

Fairytales.

Sighing, I could feel the goosebumps inhabiting my skin as the memories of tonight rotated like a carousal in my mind.

There was something different about tonight. About Taehyung.

There is no doubt that he is my friend but the more I think of this trip, the more I feel like it could be something else. Maybe my brother just got into my head, giving me reason to imagine all these scenarios about him and making me think that Taehyung wants something other than a friendship.

He doesn't. He's just showing me a fun time and I'm learning more about him as I did over the years. It's just more intense now because we are face to face. I'm not used to seeing him everyday and interacting with him so of course it's different. He's getting to know me like I'm getting to know him.

It's nothing more.

Still, I can't help but wonder, the look in his eyes...

"Why are you so tense Kye? You seemed fine a minute ago." His baritone oozed between us, making my stomach flutter.

I glanced up at him, his eyes smiling along with the one that framed his pearly whites.

"Is it because we're closer than usual?" He added, softly tightening his grip.

His warm hand covers me and held me as swayed to the mellow tunes. I felt his anticipation and an eagerness that glinted in his eyes once they caught mine.

It's so similar to the look he gave me in Lanai when he was close to me.

I thought...no! No, no, no. I'm being silly. Okay, this ends now. No more thinking stupid thoughts about my friend because that's all he is. A friend.

A friend who took me to probably one of the most romantic restaurants here with quite possibly the most breathtaking view of scenery, including himself, which was a marvel to my very eyes.

Taehyung is...no. Stop Kye! There are four days left of this trip and I'm not going to ruin it with some whimsical fantasy about my friend.

Hmm...the only way for me to prove to myself that this is nothing more than a friendship, I will ask him who he's dating. We've never talked about him seeing someone, only me when he asked about my ex.

Why can't I intrude on his love life too?

I turned away from the patio door and went to shower, preparing for my night as I had a long, adventurous day ahead of me.

Moments after my night routine and gearing up for a heavenly sleep on this bed made of clouds, there was a knock on my door. I glanced in the mirror just to make sure I was decent enough and I didn't have anything on my face. Even if it was just Taehyung or Yoongi, I do not want to relive the pink, fluffy robe and bunny slippers embarrassment.