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37. Pardon

Taehyung's Point of View

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One hour...

Maybe two...

Three would be pushing the limit on how many hours of sleep I've gotten.

I read Kye's diary more times than even a million fingers could have counted, killing myself slowly after every line written and the one line that kept me awake through the night is what's making it hard to even try and attempt this day.

My phone buzzed against my nightstand. I glanced over to it but didn't bother to answer. It was just Jimin and the more I ignored him, the sooner he is sure to show up.

Answering him would only interrupt my thoughts and I needed some sort of faith to hold onto.

You however are exactly how I imagined you to be: funny, confident and dorky!

I startled myself from the chuckle that vibrated against my chest. My lips were pressed together while my cheeks tightened them into a smile. This is something I didn't expect today but I welcomed it. Hard as it maybe to think of her, I can help but feel a strength in doing so.

I need to repay you someday ...

She will never do such thing. Does she not know that allowing me in her life is all the repayment she will ever have to give? Even if we aren't on the best of terms now, we will be again.

I hoped.

I got to share my favorite things with my favorite person.

Her favorite person. Me. Why do I feel protective of this? She made it sound as if we were a society with many secrets and rituals that no one else knew of. In that regard, I should protect what's ours and not let anyone come between them. Unfortunately, I failed us both and our secrets are now just memories of what will never be.

...you were the center of the little universe that we sat in and it was...complete.

This night was the second time I attempted intimacy with her. My first was holding her hand on the plane. I was so afraid she wouldn't let me touch her. Ignoring my fears, I did and the act of it kindled a flame inside of me that collapsed the mountain of doubts and uncertainties I held dormant because of my secret. However, this night, I pushed more limits and held her in my arms.

The smell of her vanilla scent still lingered in my nostrils, a fragrance of a memory that would never be broken. I'd yearned to kiss her inviting lips as I stared into her wondering mahogany eyes and the tint of honey that swirled within them. Eyes that see I before closing my own and when I wake in the dawning hours.

I miss you so much Kye.

Tu es amoureux de moi?

Her favorite language. The way she spoke of Paris in her letters before told me how much she wanted to visit. I hope that in a parallel universe we are together and I'm able to give her everything she wanted, including a trip to Paris but we must began with Tokyo first.

You are my first love.

The line that kept me awake.

Broken is the heart that dwelled inside me for it can no longer hold a breath to beat. How I started thinking of her with smile that now ended with an bitter frown, twisted in agony and drowned in tragedy. This very phrase is what keeps me from finishing this day yet it pushed me as well.

One...

Two...

Maybe three hours I've roamed mindlessly through my room, dressing myself while thinking of her. Smiling and laughing when I'm not suffocating my tears from falling. As I stared at my reflection in the mirror, my heart dragged between beats and I took a deep breath to steady myself. Hobi's words replayed, telling me in so many words to trust Euna.

I will try, but I'm frightened.

Jimin finally came and collected me and we have arrived at the venue. Allowing his lead, I kept my gaze to the ground. I didn't want to focus on the caterers or florists buzzing around like worker bees. Granting sight at them will only make this real and I'm trying my best to believe that I'm dreaming a dressed up nightmare.

We ended up in one of the private rooms in the back. Yoongi and Hobi were already waiting and the rest of the gentlemen will arrive before the ceremony begins.

"You look very handsome." Hobi stated, smiling at me. How does he do it? How does he smile through his pain?

"Oh thank you. I got this suit custom made. I was thinking of using it for a photo shoot." Jimin answered.

We laughed at his ice breaking response.

"Yeah, you look handsome too Jimin." Hobi added.

I took a seat over on the armchair and pulled my phone from my pocket. Scrolling through the messages, I found Kye's name. Clicking on it took me to the message I began last night but never managed the courage to finish it. This was probably a good thing because if she sent back even a punctuation as a response, I would end this day and be on the first flight out to San Francisco. I just wish there was some...

"Taehyung, Euna is here to see you." Hobi called to me as I must have been dazed staring at this message.

Nodding, I got up from the chair and met Euna at the door. She was a breathtaking, beautiful bride. My heart ached for Hobi who deserved to be the one standing by her side and not me. Is there some kind of hocus pocus I could do to switch places with him?

"Euna, is everything okay?"

Euna gulped before she tilted her head over at Yoongi and nodded. I glanced behind to see Yoongi walking over to us.

"Come with me." Euna spoke, as she took me by the hand and lead me down the hall.

As much as I would give for anything to postpone the events that were to occur today, I was confused on what Euna could want. I was already too shaky for drama.

We stopped at the door of another private room. Euna released my hand and gave me a hard stare as if she was gathering her poker face.

"I don't care about whatever happens behind this door, we will leave this place today unmarried." She raised her brow.

"Pardon?" My face however held a surprised stare.

"Yoongi?" Euna called who nodded as if giving her the signal to go ahead before she turned back towards me. "Trust me." She stated.

Euna opened the door, revealing out parents standing about, talking and looking just as perplexed as I was. Yoongi closed the door behind us and locked it.

"Euna, what is this about?" Mr. Seung spoke.

Euna peered over to me before her gaze rolled back toward our parents. She gestured for Yoongi come forward as he retrieved an envelope from his pocket and handed it to Mr. Seung.

"This is about why Taehyung and I are not getting married." She stated.

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