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35. Advice

Taehyung's Point of View

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I canceled my Sunday gathering with my friends this past weekend but promised them we'd get together for a housewarming on Friday before the wedding. Until then, I've been using the majority of my week rescheduling meetings until after the honeymoon.

Pfft...honeymoon.

Euna and I didn't want to plan one, let alone go. I told her that I would allow Hobi to join her and I would get lost somewhere else. They deserve this more than I do.

Moreover, this day has not been best in terms of my torturous thoughts. I opened Kye's diary to read last night and to my luck, my fingers were stuck on the entry she wrote the day we went parasailing.

She admitted not knowing everything I said but I can remember as if it was yesterday:

Kye, having you so close to me feels like the softest place in this whole universe. Dreaming of feeling your skin to mine seems so unreal. Do you know how you make me feel? Do you know that like you more than just a friend? I wish you could understand what I was saying. I wish you could feel for me what I feel for you.

I still recalled the way my body shivered as I admitted my deepest secrets to her, revealing how much I've yearned to have her in my arms and feel the tenderness of her skin.

I'm never leaving the past, ever.

Irritation climbed steady until I'm consumed. That four letter word keeps clinging to my every thought, I'm waiting for it to burst through the seams of my lips in the most obscene matter.

It's a thin line between sane and insanity.

"Your meeting in Paris is scheduled two days after your return. Should we reschedule or do you want to keep it?"

Yoongi's voice nudged me back to reality as I dragged my stare toward him. "Keep it."

"Okay...there is an international conference call at Seung Incorporated scheduled for the day after your return from Paris. This is regarding the London investors."

"Keep it." I answered as I tapped my pin against my cheek.

"Also, you gave me permission to retain the deferred documents from the Hawaii trip, what would you like me to do with those?"

One less memory I need of Hawaii. "Keep them on file. Maybe we can revisit the offer in the near future."

"Will do. One more thing, Euna emailed you some documents as well. She said not to open till Saturday..." Yoongi raised his brow at this.

"It's probably just copies of the prenuptial agreement we..." An immediate thought of Kye came to mind, highly unrelated to the subject but never the less, it shook my core as I dropped my pen and gripped the arms of my chair. I couldn't finish that statement.

Yoongi gulped at my sudden reaction. "That's a..." He cleared his throat. "...very odd of your fathers to agree to such thing."

The breath in my chest swelled, hindering me to answer but I managed, somehow. "They didn't. Euna and I did this." I amended.

"Ah!" Yoongi threw his head back in understanding. "In that case, I will make sure to have them ready for you two when you're alone to sign and I will see that your lawyers get them."

"Thank you Yoongi." I leaned back in my chair, feeling the heat seep from my nostrils above my lips from the heavy sigh I released.

Staring into nothing.

"Call her Taehyung or text her at least. You did say you exchanged numbers finally." Yoongi echoed in the silence of the office.

"I tried. She won't hear from me and she apparently had me blocked from contact at her job." I admitted. Against my better judgement, I broke down and attempted contact, meeting the rejection that awaited me.

"You own the company Taehyung." Yoongi reminded.

"I respect her wishes Yoongi. She's right for avoiding me." Hearing myself said this just made me even angrier at myself for too many reasons to focus on. "I have to go."

Grabbing my phone, I stood up quickly from my chair and reached out for Yoongi to give me the keys to the car. I didn't want him to drive me anywhere this time. I needed time to myself and just to go wherever the roads leads me.

Driving with absent minded thoughts and wishes, I ended up in the part of the city where I knew I could find someone who would lend me their time and ear. My friends have been there for me ever since this whole ordeal began but I tried not to tell them much because they have their own lives and problems to tackle. I've been a little silent since my return from Hawaii and even more this week. I felt guilty about the cancellation but I hope I'm forgiven. Friday will be a great night for us regardless of what will happen afterwards.

Pulling into the parking lot, I made a swift exit from my car and darted into the building. Once I passed security, I entered onto the bustling set of people, cameras and lights, scanning around for the one I sought. His laugh was heard in the distance as if it unknowingly called to me and that me smile. I took my time walking over to him and caught his gaze on instant. He excused himself from his company and met me midway.

"This is surprising. You're not lost are you?" He grinned before pulling me in for a hug.

It took everything I had in me and more to not bawl my eyes out before him and everyone around us. The sting alone pinched my lids, causing a wince that I veiled as a cough.

"Maybe." I answered as we pulled away.

Jin nodded his head right for us to walk toward other side of the set. "So, you don't love us anymore or something?" He teased during our stride.

"Hmph...no. Why would you think that?"

He shrugged. "You don't seem like yourself and you canceled on us. I won't tell you that we talked about you behind your back but that's exactly what I'm telling you." Jin chuckled.

"I'm really sorry about that." I mumbled.

We ended up outside the studio, drifting away from the crowd of frenzied workers.

"You've been sorry about a lot of things lately, even things you shouldn't apologize for." Jin assessed.

Slipping my hands into my pocket, I sauntered onto the open and empty walkway, staring at the concrete beneath out steps.

"I honestly don't know what to say to you Taehyung, or Hobi. Hell, none of us do but no matter what, we are here for both of you." Jin assured.

I was silent to reply but Jin knows my heart.

"May I offer some advice?"

The familiar sting pinched my eyes more but I refuse to surrender to them, murmuring a low please to Jin's question.

"If you want her around, send her my way. She likes me better anyways." He grinned.

This is why I'm here, to find the smile that has been lost for too long. I gave him a playful shove. "Easy." I uttered.

"On a serious note Taehyung, at some point in our lives we all have to endure a long, vigorous race before we reach the finish line. I'm not talking about just the run itself but the preparation and training that comes along with it. You've spent seven years preparing and now you will begin running. When you're nearing the end, I promise you won't be in last place, regardless of when you finish." Jin patted my back. "Hold steady onto the fight." He concluded.

Though I wasn't seeking advice, I felt a relief in receiving it. I've cursed fate so many times within the last of what seemed like forever but a warmth cuddled me in his words as if it was something I needed to hear.

Maybe to be reminded of...

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