The Hunger Games - Raining Fire [[EDITING]]

Chapter 30

A/N: Yay!! 30th chap anniversary :D 

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"Peeta..." I spoke. 

"Yes, honey?" he asked. 

"I-" I paused for a moment. I don't know how to say this! "Well, I-I'd love to have kids too, but,"

Peeta says, "But what?!" saying 'what' forcefully. 

"But, well I think its too soon. And even if we did have children, the Capitol will probably take them away..." my voice trails away.

"Oh, okay," Peeta's voice saddens. I can tell. He never says it like that, well, not usually. 

"Are you okay?" I ask. Obviously he'a not. By the looks of it, he is probably going to ignore me.

"No," he whispers. 

I ask again, "Why?"

"You won't understand..."

"Won't understand what?" I force a whisper.

Peeta sighs, "Ugh, it has been my dream to have children, the joy of looking after them. I've pleased you many, many times! And I love it, but-"

"But what?"

"But its about time you've done something for me. I sacrificed a lot of things for me, and carrying around a foetus for 9 months isn't so hard! So please?! Listen to me and do this favour. For me...?"

"What the hell?! Okay, I know I don't show you enough how much I love you, but first of all, ew! Secondly, you don't even know how carrying a foetus for 9 months would feel like, 'cause your male!!

Also, the baby could be premature or late. Thirdly, even if we do have kids, the Capitol could take them away! That almost happened to my sister and I don't want it to happen to my future children! I have a reason, to not fufil this favour, but obviously you don't understand." I babbled (kinda with a rude tone of voice)

"Fine then," Peeta stares onwards, and leaves the room.

I can't help but feel bad about what I said. I also feel sorry for him, and how his dreams don't often come true.

Peeta's POV

I don't understand how hard it is to be a childbearer. All I wanted was at least a child. Son or daughter, I don't mind. But I've always drempt of it coming true (not the gross parts).

Yes, the baby kicks as it grows up inside, and yes, it's painful but there are other ways of giving birth! (I don't mean caezerian, I mean things like water births).

I just wish she wasn't so negative about this. It's a great gift to have children. I wish Katniss knew that...

"Peeta...?!" I hear Katniss calling me; and a faint noise after it. 

"Yes?" 

"Come," I walk into the room we argued in.

"What?" I sigh.

"I love you, Peeta. And I'm really sorry I didn't understand! It's just my concern for children. And don't forget what happened to my sister!"

"Don't worry about it," I admit, "I was slightly selfish myself."

She laughed, "I'm still worried though,"

"About what?" my eyes widen.

"Well; you said that I don't treat you with enough respect or show you how much I love you, did you mean all that?! Is that true!??" she asks, with a tear in her eye.

"Well; it's complicated," 

"Okay,"

"So, can we please try and have kids?" I ask. 

"Um," Katniss pauses. 

"Pleeeeaaase?" I beg.