Convergent; After Allegiant

Chapter 11

Around eleven-thirty I decide to start to Zekes apartment. On the way I run into a very lost Tobias. I tell him to follow me and he agrees. Soon, we reach Zekes apartment. I knock in the door and soon it is pulled open by Uriah.

"Welcome Four and Trissy" he says. I immeadietly pin him to the floor and kneel ontop of him. All noise in the room immediately stops as all heads then our way.

"What did you say?" I ask, deadly quiet.

"N-nothing sir" he stutters as I laugh. I stand and pull him up as everyone returns to what they were doing. Tobias still stands in the doorway looking confused.

"I don't like being called Trissy. "I say with a smirk. With a hand clamped around his wrist, I pull Tobias into the packed house. The air carries the sharp sent of alcohol as we walk around. A banner hangs in the air above the counter, it reads 'WERE GLAD YOUR NOT DEAD' in bright letters. I chuckle and when Tobias looks at me confusedly I point to the sign which makes him more confused. I shake my head and wave it off.

We wander around for a while until I notice Marlene and Uriah in a corner, talking.

"Hey Mar, Uri!" I shout they quickly walk over to Tobias and I and engulf us in a hug. I return the gesture whereas Tobias stands, still as a statue, looking confusedly at Uriah. He tears away from the hug and walks away. My eyes become glossy and a weight rests on my heart as I go after him. He walked through the front door so that is the direction I turn. I walk to the one place I know he would be and, sure enough, his dark silhouette rests atop the rocks. I walk over and sit next to him. He turns his head in my direction but quickly averts his gaze.

" What's wrong?" I ask gently. He simply shakes his head and hangs it low. " You can talk to me you know."

"I know, I just" he sighs " I don't know."

"Why'd you leave the party?" I ask

"I just feel like I'm disappointing people by not remembering them." He says. I don't really know how to respond to that so I rest my hand on his shoulder.

" No ones perfect. They know that. You made your decisions and I'm sure they understand why" I say

"Why did I do it?" He asks. I have been dreading this question but I know how to answer.

" Long story short? I died, as did Marlene, Uriah and Lynn. Erudite found a serum that brought us back to life. But after I died, from what I heard, you were a wreck, you gave up; went to abnegation and took the serum. Christina tried to stop you but she couldn't." I explain. He looks at me quizzically for a moment before responding.

"Why would I care if you died. I know I'm not related to you and I definitely wasn't in a relationship with you. So why did I care so much." With every word that leaves his mouth my heart shatters more and more. I simply stand and leave, no longer bothering to restrain the tears that pooled in my eyes. Wet salty drops run down my face as I run. I don't know where I'm going until I reach the trains.

I know he doesn't remember me but it hurts to know that that's what he thinks of me. What hurts more is he didn't even try to come after me. I know he doesn't know me, but that thought doesn't sooth the pain.