You are the Reason

Chapter 1

Typical monday morning. I was busy scrolling through my instagram when an incident from last last month repeated on my mind.

I had sex with my crush. Cliché to hear but that's how I identify her. Yes, her.

I've been an avid fan ever since the first time I heard Glaiza de Castro sang. It was a live prod. She was promoting her concert that time.

"Rhi!" Bianca, a friend, who's also exposed in the industry same as mine, shouted my name.

I glared at her. Sanay siya sa pagmamaldita ko. She's always like that, tho. Hinahayaan niya lang ako na maging ako.

"Glai posted something." Aniya habang nakatingin sa cellphone niyang bagong labas last week lang. "I think she's dating someone." She added.

Agad akong nag tungo sa ig account ni Glai. Tignan kung may bagong post. Dismayadong tinapunan ko ng tingin ang best friend ko dahil wala naman akong nakita.

"Wala naman! Two months ago pa 'to!" Sambit ko bago pulutin ang throw pillow at ibato yon sa kanya.

"Story pala," tumawa siya nang makaiwas.

I suddenly regret why I chose to take a look at her stories. The first one was a clip of a guy doing stupid thing and Glai's laugh was so loud on the back ground. Ang sumunod ay picture na lang noong lalaki na sa tingin ko'y sing tangkad ko.

"Hala!" Napatayo pa ako dahil sa notification na natanggap! "Hala, Shit! Shit!" Lumapit ako kay Bianca. Pinipigilan ang tiling nakaipit sa lalamunan.

"Fuck, she followed me!"

Inagaw ni Bianca ang cellphone ko. Inaasar niya ako dahil nakafollow sa kanya si Glaiza at sakin, hindi. Nagkatrabaho kasi sila sa isang project last year.

"We need to celebrate. Magkakalove life ka na," pabiro niyang sambit pero talagang tumawag sa bodyguard niya para magpabili ng alak.

Glaizaredux

You accidentally liked my post, miss Rhian.

Oh. I uttered inside of my head. Nasaan na ba si Bianca? Hindi ko naman mapipindot yon kung tama ang pagkakasabi niya na may bagong post.

Whianwamos

I'm sorry. It was on my recommendations.

I lied.

Glaizaredux

A post two months ago from now is on your recommendations?

Binasa ko lang 'yon at hindi na nag reply. Ang tanga-tanga.

Nag followback muna ako sa kanya bago panoorin ulit yung story niya at mag pasyang patayin ang cellphone ko.

She has an indie movie. Ayon ang pinagkakaabalahan niya ngayon. It was on the news because the directors of the film was amazed by her acting.

Baka kapag nagkaron kami ng movie together, hindi ko kayanin. Baka titigan ko lang siya at paulit-ulit na puriin.

"Hayaan mo na!" Bianca tried to console me. "Naikama mo naman na." She added.

"Ang panget naman kasi ng unang usapan namin." Well, sa matinong state ng utak.

"Our industry is too small for the two of you to not interact. Both of you will meet soon." Her words were convincing. Na kahit pa inabot ng halos tatlong buwan bago madawit ang pangalan namin sa isat-isa, I was still satisfied.

"We're friends, tito." I answered when asked why we follow each other. Without a project together or even a single prod together.

Nag popromote ako ng magazine ngayon. I'm lucky to be the cover of the month. Hindi ko naman alam na pati ang simpleng pag follow ay magiging bigdeal.