You are the Reason

Chapter 27

Inabot pa ng ilang minuto bago ako natauhan at bumalik sa ulirat. Tumayo ako at agad na tumakbo para habulin si Glaiza. I was crying while running towards the elevator. Pinindot ko agad ang basement and when I arrived, naabutan ko si Glaiza na nakasandal sa sasakyan niya.

Her hands are covering her face. She frustratedly messed her hair and when our eyes met, she immediately looked away.

Tumakbo ako papalapit bago pa man siya makapasok sa sasakyan niya. She seemed shock by my actions. I hugged her as tight as I could. She didn't move an inch. She just let me do what I want.

"I'm sorry..." I said in a hoarse voice. "Please," humikbi ako at mas hinigpitan ang yakap sa kanya.

She didn't say anything but I felt how she wanted to let go of the hug so I took a step back.

May mga mapagtanong na mata ko siyang tinignan.

Please... don't say anything... don't leave me here...

"You followed me wearing that?" She asked while scanning my body.

Doon ko pa lang naalala ang suot ko. I'm wearing nighties. Wala akong bra at bakat na bakat sa kulay puti kong pang itaas ang mga dibdib ko. Hindi rin ganon kahaba ang buhok ko kumpara sa kanya kaya hindi natatakpan ang likod ko dahil masyadong revealing ang suot ko.

I bit my lower lip to stifle a smile. She sounded like a protective girlfriend after telling me that she wanted to take a break.

"I really need some time to think." Seryoso niyang sabi habang hinuhubad ang suot na jacket. "This reason may sound so shitty but I was hurt."

"I'm sorry..." it was all I could say.

"I hurt me big time." She smiled sadly. "I tried to look for informations about you and him... doon sa Boracay," she faked a laugh. "You two shared a lot of moments together."

Ilang ulit siyang nagpakawala ng malalim na buntong hininga habang malalim ang tingin sa mga mata ko.

"Anyways," she paused. "Nasa sala yung mga gamit mo." She smiled slightly.

I wanted to tease her about her jealousy but it doesn't seem like she's just jealous. It feels like I'm not doing my part the right way.

Dahil hindi ako nagsalita, nagpatuloy siya sa sinasabi. "I wanted to think of our situation as a misunderstanding, but..." she sighed deeply. "Please," tumulo ang luha sa mga mata niya. "I want to take a break..."

"What... do you mean?" Hindi makapaniwalang tanong ko. "Akala ko ba..."

"Please," she desperately said.

"Alam kong nagkamali ako. I was drunk. You know me... alam mo kung paano ako malasing."

I kept on crying as I held her hand for support. Hindi ko na alam kung anong mga sinasabi ko pero ayaw ko talagang umalis siya. Pinipilit niyang kumalas pero natatakot ako.

Natatakot akong kapag binitawan ko siya, tuluyang maputol ang mayroon kaming dalawa. Natatakot ako sa katotohanan na maaaring mawala siya sa akin dahil sa mga mali kong nagawa.

"I'm done adjusting, Rhian. I'm so done." I saw how emotionless her eyes was. She's like an ice.

May mga luha man sa mata niya, wala akong emosyon na nakita roon.

"Punong-puno na 'ko. It wasn't the first time that Anton became the reason of our misunderstanding. Alam mo sa sarili mo yan. I've always been understanding and you're taking advantage of it." She said it with so much hatred.

Marahas niyang tinanggal ang kamay ko sa pagkakakapit sa kanya. She looked at me with emotionless eyes.

"It's not just jealousy... it has something to do with my insecurities. Be happy without me, Rhian. You better be happy without me." She breathed out before clicking the alarm of her car.