You are the Reason

Chapter 14

I woke up around 2 AM. Glaiza was peacefully sleeping beside me. Her lips are pouting cutely.

I instantly took a picture of her and put it on my Instagram story. Umahon ako sa kama at pumasok sa banyo. Pumunta ako sa balcony para pakatitigan ang labas kahit sandali.

Natulog kami around 11 PM pero nagising ako agad. I was tired but I had time to sleep whenever she's driving.

Sa ngayon, sigurado ako sa isang bagay. Nagugutom ako.

Pumasok ako ulit sa kwarto at nadatnan ang tulog na tulog pa ring si Glaiza. Alam kong pagod na pagod siya sa pag drive kanina.

Pumunta ako sa kusina para sana mag luto pero pag dating ko doon, nawala ang gutom ko at nanumbalik ang antok.

Bumalik ako sa kwarto at tumabi kay Glaiza. I tucked myself in the blanket so I'd feel her body next to me.

Pinakatitigan ko siya. I wonder why she chose to be with me the whole day instead of resting.

The fact that we were on her unit earlier this morning makes me wonder. Nalilito tuloy ako. Alam kong magkaibigan kami. To be honest, I don't want to jump into conclusions just because she's being nice. Ayaw ko naman din kasing umasa.

What if I just show her that I really like her? That I have romantic feelings for her? That it's not just pure friendship for me.

Mukhang naalimpungatan siya sa mga galaw ko kaya bahagya siyang gumalaw. Unti-unting bumukas ang mga mata ni Glaiza. She looked at me with soulful eyes.

She blinked twice before looking at me again straight up in my eyes. Parang nangungusap ang mga mata niya. It's like asking me to do something that she can't say.

She went closer to me without saying anything. Nagsumiksik sa leeg ko habang inaayos ang sariling buhok na may kahabaan.

Hindi ko alam kung sino sa amin ang mas naunang makatulog pero pagkagising, she's already awake and she's talking to someone. It's 8 in the morning and the sun was blocked by my thick grey curtains.

Naupo ako sa kama para malaman niya na gising na rin ako.

"Yes, I know. Nakita ko na nga." Sabi niya sa kausap bago ako pakatitigan mula sa repleksyon ko sa salamin. From then, her gaze didn't leave my eyes. Ramdam ko sa salamin ang pagkatitig niya sa akin.

She looked away as she massage her temples using a single hand. She both looked frustrated and hot at the same time.

Her posture turned me on. Ang payat na si Glaiza ay namomroblema pero ito ako, iniisip na ang sarap niyang titigan sa ganitong sitwasyon.

Things makes me wonder... how would it feel to be railed by her? How would it feel if we'll do it sober?

When we did it before, we were drunk and not too conscious. Now... now that I'm thinking about it...

Oh gosh, nalulunod ako.

Agad akong umahon mula sa pwesto kanina. I immediately closed my eyes real hard. Mukhang mali pa ako doon dahil naglaro sa utak ko ang nangyari noong gabing 'yon.

"Hmm..." impit na ungol niya nang halikan ako.

Stop, Rhian, stop.

I was waiting for her to say it but it didn't seem like she even recognize to whom she's making out with.

Agad akong napakagat sa pang ibabang labi nang hatakin niya ako mula sa tiyan padikit sa katawan niya.

Ang likuran ko ay nakalapat sa mainit niyang harapan. Her boobs felt so soft on my back. Us, skin to skin, this better not be a dream or the world will fuck the sanity within me.