Tw: self harm
Gigi pov: after the night I had with crystal I just wanna re live it forever and ever. I notice she's not with me when I wake up and the bathroom door is closed. I'm guessing she's in there. I walk up and try to open the door and it's locked. That's weird it's never locked. "Hey crystal hun what's up" I say a little worried. "Uhhh... n nothing baby" she says back with tears in her voice. I know something is up but I don't wanna pressure her into telling me. I sit by the door and just talk to her. She's not responding back which worries me. "I'm sorry babes but I'm unlocking this door and coming in. You're worrying me too much" I say and I find a Bobby pin tiny enough to fit in and I unlock it. What I walk into makes me instantly cry. I look and see crystal, my sweet girl on the floor with a blade next to her and marks all down her stomach and thighs. "Oh baby girl come here" I say bawling. I grab her blade and flush it down the toilet and just hold her on the floor not caring if I get blood on myself at this point. I just wanna make sure she's okay. We sit there and cry for what feels like forever and ever. "What made you do this hun" I say with a soft tone worried about my love. "I just feel so ugly and fat. I've dealed with body image my whole life and ballet is so toxic. People don't know the diets they make us do or how if we're overweight were silently judged and made fun of. I just feel so ugly geeg" crystal tells me making me cry more. "Baby girl. You're absolutely perfect to me. And if the ballet world can't see it then fuck them. You're my everything and seeing you like this makes me hurt so bad" I say. I pick crystal up off the ground and take her over to the counter. I wash off her legs and stomach then leave to get her new clothes but I keep the door open to make sure nothing happens. I get her one of my huge hoodies and some sweats of mine. I help her get undressed and dressed into the clothes that I give her. I kiss her on the forehead then we hear a knock on the door.
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Sorry it so short! Just a lil sum to hold y'all over:)
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