Dia yang kupilih

Part 27

Orked baru selesai mandi ketika Aunty Kay mengetuk pintu bilik. Orked ditempatkan dibilik tetamu.

"Orked, jom turun makan. Dah lewat ni. You mesti lapar."

Orked hanya senyum dan mengangguk. Kakinya melangkah menuruti Aunty Kay. Mummy Joshua masih cantik, sangat cantik dimata Orked. Wajah mix dengan hidung mancung.

"Aunty dah cuba ajak Joshua makan tapi dah kenyang katanya."

Kenyang apanya. Mereka makan tengah hari sahaja tadi siang. Orked tidak mahu jawap lebih.

Mereka sampai di meja makan. Makanan sudah sedia terhidang. Rosa tersenyum apabila melihat Orked. Dia meletakkan pinggan apabila Orked duduk. Aunty Kay duduk berhadapan dengan Orked.

"Eh Orked je ke yang makan? Aunty? Yang lain?" Orked serba salah.
"Yang lain malam tak makan dah. Aunty pun dah kenyang. Tapi aunty teman you makan sekejap ya." Aunty Kay bersuara lembut. Dia jarang menerima tetamu dirumah ini. Dia gembira apabila Orked bersetuju bermalam dirumah ini.

Perut Orked yang lapar membuatkan dirinya tidak berfikir panjang lagi. Lauk disendukkan kedalam pinggan.

"Orked dah lama kenal Joshua?"
"Ermmmm.. Not so long. About a year and half macam tu kot." Sedar tak sedar lama juga mereka kenal. Orked menyuapkan nasi kedalam mulut.

Aunty Kay hanya senyum melihat Orked. Orked makan dulu. "Aunty naik solat sekejap. Nanti Orked tunggu dulu ya. Aunty nak sembang sembang dengan Orked dulu." Aunty Kay meminta diri untuk beredar.

Orked mengangguk dan tersenyum.
"Sure."

Dia makan sambil berbual bual dengan Rosa.

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Orked memandang bulan dilangit. Bulan cerah malam ini. Angin malam sesekali menyapa tubuhnya. Cantiknya ruang taman rumah Joshua ni.

"Hot green tea?" suara Aunty Kay mematikan lamunan Orked

Aunty Kay datang bersama dua gelas hot green tea. Dia meletakkan mug diatas meja dan duduk dikerusi taman itu. Orked menghampiri Aunty Kay dan duduk disebelahnya.

"Orked mesti penat. Sorry for asking you to sembang sembang with me." Aunty Kay menghirup teh hijau panasnya.

"It's okay. Bukan Orked drive pun. Josh yang drive." Orked membalas.

Mereka berbual bual tentang taman, tentang keluarga Orked, tentang Alicia dan sehinggalah sampai kepada perihal Joshua.

"Aunty rasa Aunty buat banyak salah pada Josh. Sampai sekarang dia tak nak cakap dengan Aunty. Err.. I guess you know about us. About me. Since you close with my daughter and son, and also Raffael."

Orked serba salah. "Ermm.. Not that much. But I know a bit. Sorry.."

"No.. It's okay. That's not a secret among us. I'm getting older, I know my sins, my fault. I'm too young back then and his father was my first love. I love him so much that I can offer the world to him." Aunty Kay memulakan kisahnya.

"I don't know what his grandparents told him when he find them to know the truth, but that's not true that I don't want him. Aunty yang insist nak lahirkan Josh juga. I want this kid, a baby with the person I fall in love even he abandon me."

"I was struggling with my pregnancy and final exam. It was so hard for me. I finish my final exam with good grade and delivered my baby but... Suddenly I got news his dad married another women as soon as he's back to Malaysia. I always thought at least we used to love each other, but he never love me at all. I was in postpartum depression and my auntie ask me to come back to Malaysia. I close with her more than my own parents. Dia yang jaga Aunty. Rosa tu asalnya maid dirumah my auntie. Dia yang besarkan Joshua. I can't even touch and see him. He's growing up looks like his father. I didnt hate him Ked, I hate myself because I miss my first love everytime I see Josh. When I getting older and married Alice's dad, that feeling slowly faded but my relationship with Joshua being so awkward. I just don't know how to turn back. Lagi aunty rasa bersalah bila one day Joshua's dad come to meet me and tell me the truth. Dia kahwin sebab family bisnes. You tahu kan, kahwin bisnes bukan hanya dalam drama. It happen in real life."

Orked menyentuh tangan Aunty Kay. Cuba meminjamkan sedikit kekuatan.

"Can you help us? I want my son back."

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Orked memanjat tangga dan menuju ke bilik Joshua. Perlahan pintu diketuk.

"Siapa?"
"Orked.."

Pintu segera dibuka. Joshua menjemput Orked masuk kebiliknya. Punyalah luas bilik ini tetap juga mahu duduk sendiri dan meninggalkan rumah. Punyalah bawa hati dan dirinya Joshua ini.

"Duduklah." Joshua menjemput Orked duduk di sofa tepi katilnya.

"Josh, you tak lapar ke?"
"Tak." Joshua menjawap laju.
"Come, sit here. Orked menepuk sit sofa disebelahnya. Joshua menurut.
"Pandang I." Joshua menurut lagi. Dia selalu begitu dengan Orked.
"Your mom dah masuk tidur. I teman you makan okay. Nanti you gastrik."pujuk Orked.

Joshua hanya diam. Orked mencapai tangan Joshua.

"Josh, apa you simpan dalam hati pasal your mom? Tell me." tangan Joshua digenggam kemas.

"My mom hate me. She hate me. She don't want me. I feel so hurt whenever I see her because I love her, I want to hug her, I want she treat me like she treat Alice. I never feel that from my own mom." luah Joshua.

"So. That's why you get anxiety everytime you see her? That's what your doctor said?" Orked meneka.

"Erm...salah satunya lah.." Joshua menjawap perlahan.

"Josh, your mom never hate you. She love you. You lahir dari orang paling dia cinta, Josh."

"Tapi I ni anak haram Ked."
"Josh! Don't talk like this. That's not your fault. Yeah, your parents did a mistake but everyone make a mistake. Kita semua pendosa Josh. Can you forgive your mom? Okay not for her, for you to feel ease." pujuk Orked.

Orked memegang lembut wajah Joshua. Jemarinya mengesat air mata Joshua. Tidak pernah dia terfikir dia akan sedekat ini dengan Joshua. Joshua yang dulu tidak pernah bertegur walau mereka bertembung, kini dia tahu segalanya tentang Joshua.

"Kita makan jom? Rosa make your fav salted egg prawn."

Joshua mengangguk. Orked bangkit dan menarik tangan Joshua. Joshua turut bangkit dan menarik Orked dalam dakapannya.

"How I do I live without you, Ked. You make me want to live." bisik Joshua.

Orked senyum. Dia menepuk perlahan belakang Joshua. Pelukan dibalas kemas.