His Nefarious Schemes

Kabanata 28

My heart felt heavy. The pain I thought I forgot went back. Listening to his explanation is like opening the scars I tried to heal.

"They thought you were hard to get so we made a bet." his voice slightly shaking. Tahimik lang ako. Pinapakinggan ang mga salita na lumalabas sa bibig niya.

"I agreed." dagdag niya.

"Asshole." I whispered.

"I know." he smiled weakly. I slowly sat down. Knowing that his explanation is going to be long.

"But as days pass I find myself slowly falling. Believe me or not Aubrie. I didn't plan on telling you about the bet because I know you might get mad. Kinalimutan ko na ang pustahan na yun. My stupid friends thought I was just playing around." he reached for my hand. Holding it tightly.

"Aubrie mahal kita. Four years and it's still you. I tried moving on Aubrie. God! I dated tons of girls just to forget you but fuck! Ikaw parin!" Pumikit siya at napapikit din ako.

"I'm sorry." I whispered. Slowly standing.

"Aubrie please," he pleaded. "I love you. Just let me show you how much I love you." Umiling ako marahas na binawi ang kamay ko.

"I'm sorry for not listening to your explanation but we're over Dylan. Wala na tayo eh. Masakit pero hanggang doon na lang talaga tayo." I said my eyes watering.

He shook his head and went near me. Yumuko ako para itago ang luha ko. He held my chin making me stare at his eyes.

"Aubrie naman.." lumunok ako at at huminga ng malalim. I wanted to beg him not to beg because I find myself going back to him.

"You know I felt like shit after knowing it was all a bet Dylan? I had a lot of questions but I choose to just keep quiet. Dylan masaya para sa kaibigan mo yung bet bet nayun pero para sa akin masakit yun. I cried multiple times Dylan." huminga ako ng malalim at pinunasan ang luha ko.

Some people were staring but my heart hurt so bad that I didn't care. I just wanted him to know how I felt after our break up. I wanted him to know how broken and miserable I was. Even after hearing his explanation it doesn't change a thing. It still hurts.

"And I don't think I'm willing to trust you again. I'm sorry." Lumayo ako sa kanya at tumalikod. "Please give me time to think. Wag mo na akong sundan please." I pleaded.

I slowly left the restaurant. Parang nawala ang gutom ko. I just wanted to cry hard in front of him but I didn't want him to feel bad. I know he already felt bad and guilty these past few years. I don't want to make him feel more guilty. After getting myself a cab I just went inside my room. Crying like how I cried on the first night of our break-up.

"Mom I'm really not feeling well today." I looked at myself in the mirror. My eyes are swollen and my hair messy.

"Are you really okay? You sound so sick." mommy said worried. Tipid akong ngumiti.

"I'm fine mommy. I can manage." it took a lot of pursuing so that mommy would believe I'm fine.

I canceled all my schedules today too. I thought tita would think I was acting again but she got worried too. My hoarse voice probably worried them. I wasn't sick but I felt like I was sick. Humiga ako sa kama at natulog. After hours of sleeping I woke up because of the noisy doorbell. Rolling my eyes I forced myself to get up and open the door.

"You look like shit." kahit pagod ay tinignan ko ng masama si Xavier.

"Alam mo Xavier kung hindi lang talaga ako pagod sinakal na kita diyan!" I threatened. He rolled his eyes and pulled me. Nakita ko namang nakasunod si Aisha at Amelia.