loving you was easy

chapter 63

Demi's POV

I woke up on the couch in the living room and rubbed my eyes to wake myself up. Sleep isn't the same anymore, I've spent the last year sleep beside gemma and in Gemma's arms and now that she not here is making it hard for me to sleep properly.  My eyes started watering again as I remembered that me and gemma are no longer together. I am so stupid,why didn't I just believe her when she told me what happened with Taylor? Uhh I'm such an idiot!

I checked my phone, just in case gemma tried to contact me, its a small chance but I'm still checking. I saw I had lots of texts and missed calls from both mine and Gemma's family. All the texts included the same things such as 'why did you two break up?' 'Is it true about you and gemma?' 'Call me! Tell me what happened' I didn't answer any of them! The only person I want to talk to right now is gemma. I saw that I also had a text from my manager saying that I had a meeting with my publish and all thrbother people who help me with my career. I really dont want to go but I guess I have to.

Bravely I went onto twitter to check and see what people are saying. Obviously lots of people are not happy about our break up, well we haven't even confirmed our break up, I don't want to though. All they have is the Taylor kissing gemma and gemma not wearing her engagement ring or her promise ring.

As I thought that I looked down to my hand which still had my engagement ring on and I dont plan to take it off either. Tears fell down my cheeks as I recalled the moment when gemma gave this to me, it wasn't long after I proposed, it was the day she ranted at katie Hopkins on TV. I had taken her to the arcade, to a fancy dinner and then ice skating. She gave it to me while we stood against the barrier of the ice rink. That day was like almost the best day of my life, I wish we could go back to that but its just not that easy when she won't contact me.

Anyway back to twitter, as I was coming out of it a notification popped through, gemma had tweeted something,I have Gemma's tweets sent to my phone so yeah. Curiously i opened it, so she could tweet but not text me back.

As I read it my heart dropped. The words that were written was all I needed to see that gemma doesn't plan on getting back together any time soon or even at all...

@GMcdonalds: loving you was easy...but now its time to say goodbye

I started sobbing uncontrollably. Why? Why did this have to happen? If had been a better girlfriend to gemma, she would never had started to get stressed and angry. She wouldn't have gone to Starbucks and bumped into Taylor. None of this would have happened if I helped her more!

After about half an hour I had calmed down a little bit,good because the doorbell went. Maybe its gemma, alex said he'd try and get gemma to come over to talk.

I ran to the door and opened it, but it was Alex himself even though I told him not to come. I was about to say something she he stopped me.

A- I know you said to not come over, but I was actually sent here, by gemma.

D- gemma sent you?

A- yeah she wanted me to give you this, he said as he lifted a bag of take away Chinese food. She figured in her for once sober state that you wouldn't be eating like your supposed to so she sent me over here with this. I let him and we walked out the kitchen.

D- oh right, tell her I said thanks. Wait what do you mean by her for once sober state?

A- well when I got her from her hotel, I saw that she had been cleaning up a lot of bottles of alcohol. And also she found my wine cellar in my house.

D- why haven't you stopped her?!

A- believe me I tried, but you saw what she did to Taylor and I know she has no control over it. So if she hits me in her drunk state and then sobers up and then sees me, it isn't going to help her much is it,its going to make her worse.