In Your Eyes ✧ Timothée Chalamet

21 - i know your diagnosis

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As we sit side by side at Timmy's favorite bagel place together I still can't fathom the fact that he's really here right now, in front of me.

Three months is a long time to be apart from somebody and I forgot just how much I missed the sight of him. He looked beautiful with his kind green eyes and his wild curly hair. He has caught me staring longingly at him at least three times just this morning. But I can't help myself.

I missed being with him.

I missed our talks and our laughter together and just being in his company. All of if used to mean the world to me and I thought that if he left New York I wouldn't survive on my own without him. But somehow I made it this whole time without him here by my side. I haven't broken down yet or given up on myself and for some reason I think he's to thank for that.

He gave me the strength I needed. He picked me up and put me back on my feet after Drews death and I wouldn't be where I am right now without every ounce of support that he gave me in the time that we were together.

Before our bagels arrive I reach my hand out to grasp his and I watch him smile innocently due to the simple gesture. 'There's a party tomorrow, on campus. I want you to come with me.' I watch him hesitate for a moment but then he nods and I knit my eyebrows together in confusion. 'Do you not want to go?'

'No it's not that it's just that I haven't been to a party in a while. But I'll go with you tomorrow. I'm sure it'll be a blast.' He states squeezing my hand tightly and shooting me a smile for reassurance.

I smile back just as widely. 'It'll be great. You're going to have so much fun and you'll get to meet Sophia and Joel and the twins and Syd but I'm not the biggest fan of Syd so I don't really care if you meet him or not.'

Timmy laughs at my comment. 'Isn't he Sophia's boyfriend?' He asks and I nod sadly.

'Yeah. But she's way too good for him. He's so cold to her sometimes. And she just accepts it. I don't know why though. Sophia's like the most affectionate person I've ever met. Other than you of course.' I say describing Sophia to him once again for like the thousandth time. I expect him to be fed up at this point considering I talk about her so much, but it seems like he isn't bothered by it.

'She sounds nice. Sophia.'

'She's the best.' I add and with that our bagels arrive and I immediately dig in because I woke up starving this morning despite having eaten a whole batch of my cupcakes with the boys last night.

'Has Noelle met her yet?' Timmy asks before he takes a bite of his bagel.

'No.' I reply and I try to conceal the sadness in my voice. 'I don't see Noelle much anymore. She's been so busy at Columbia and she never shows up when I invite her out to hang with my friends.'

'Have you not seen her at all?' Timmy wonders and I hold back a sigh.

'I saw her once or twice since you left. And we'll text eachother every once in a while. But that's about it.' I'm not mad at Noelle. We didn't have a falling out, we're still close and everytime she texts me I get excited to hear from her. But I was afraid me and her would go our separate ways once we went to college. And that's slowly what's starting to happen to us.

'That's weird.' Timmy comments. 'I didn't think you guys would grow apart.'

'I don't think it's like that. I just think we're both really busy you know? I'm sure that now that it's thanksgiving she'll reach out and we can all hang out again like old times.' I don't know who I'm convincing but it definitely isn't Timmy because he sees right through the lies I'm telling him. He doesn't acknowledge it though, which I'm thankful for.