In Your Eyes ✧ Timothée Chalamet

14 - sophia & xavier

E L L A

Fifteen year old me would have never pictured that this day would actually come.

That young girl with a bruised and battered up heart would have never fathomed that her biggest hopes and dreams were all coming true. And that she was finally going to NYU on a full scholarship.

I was able to escape my fathers abuse, somehow fall in love with a boy who has a heart of gold and also make it to the school I've dreamt of going to for years. Therefore, I think it's safe to say that I'm proud of myself, that maybe I was never the weak little girl I always saw myself as being.

I just hadn't reached my full potential yet.

I specifically leave the house early this morning so I can get to my dorm before my roommate arrives. But it seemed the two of us were on the same wavelength because we bumped into each other right outside our shared dorm.

'Let me guess, you're Ella Myers.' Her voice was raspy but soothing at the same time, I wondered why she sounded so hoarse. She was petite, with a head full of marvelous curls and her simple smile meant the world to me because I immediately softened up to her.

'And you're Sophia Hart.' I reply. 'It's nice to finally meet you.' We shake hands and I receive a simple nod from her before her eyes travel behind me and land on a seemingly flustered Aaron. She raises her eyebrows at my brother, not with judgment but with curiosity. 'Who's he?' She asks and before she can assume he's my boyfriend like every stranger I tend to meet I immediately clear the air.

'Just my brother Aaron.' I say a little too irritatedly. My brother has been mistaken for my boyfriend a lot because we really don't look alike. And before things got awkward with my roommate I felt like I had to explain our relation to each other. 'He's just helping me move in but he'll be gone before you know it.' I explain and Sophia let's a giggle out.

'Yeah I won't stay long.' Aaron assures her.

But Sophia shakes her head. 'Oh no I didn't mean it like that, you can stay as long as you want.' She claims and for a moment there I thought her tone implied she was somewhat hopeful that Aaron would stay a little while longer. But her next words make me think otherwise. 'My boyfriend's coming up right now too. He's just carrying some boxes while I bring these in.' She says this whilst pointing towards the large suitcase that is behind her and I nod.

The way she was eyeing Aaron made me assume she was attracted to him but when I saw her boyfriend all the way down the hall I dismissed the absurd thought. We both smile at eachother one last time before I do the honors of opening the door to our new living quarters for the rest of the year.

I spoke to Sophia once this summer simply to introduce myself. I hoped we could create a sort of virtual bond before college started but after my lengthy email to her she sent me a very short reply back.

I remember she had said to me...

Yeah it's cool that we're going to be roommates. See you in two months :)

Her reply wasn't rude or mean but for some reason I took her short reply as a sign that she wasn't interested in making conversation with me before term started. I had asked her where she was from in my email, if she lived in New York too or is she was coming from somewhere else. I had also wondered if she was studying a similar major as me or if she was majoring in something completely different.