Butterfly [j.jk]

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they say time can be a blessing and a curse. but why had it only been a curse for poor jeongguk? this was a thought the boy constantly ponders about.

there are days when the melancholy settles on you like a sudden change in weather. like how winter was now nearing its end in a blink. frost no longer hugged each blade of grass and the buds of snowfall were on the verge blossoms.

it's the kind of sadness that is intangible, like the presence of an ache where you can't pinpoint exactly where it hurts, you just know it does.

they sit close by their usual spot. a rusted bench that creaks with their swinging feet. "nari-ah," the boy calls, "do you think time is a blessing or a curse?" he asks.

the sudden question made the girl ponder for a while. a debate seemingly taking place in her tiny mind, she sits still with a concentrated face. "a blessing. time can do great things to a person." she smiles, "why'd you ask?"

"then i guess time just doesn't want to be friends with me." the boy says jokingly, but no laughter was shared by her. she saw his eyes as they locked gazes. eyes that seemed to lack in luster, ones that mirrored his shattered heart.

"they say time heals, yet i can't seem to say the same for me." he cracks a wry grin, a bitter laugh, "why is it so hard to forget?" his voice thickens, cracking as he reaches the end of his sentence. a voice of weakness and vulnerability.

"why forget when you can remember?"

the boy cocks a brow. he looks up to meet her gaze, confused.

"you know, i think the ones who choose to forget are cowards. jeongguk-ah, you are a coward." the girl nudges his elbow, laughing. "to remember is the best way to heal."

she smiles, one that melted his frozen heart. he's skeptical of her words but he continues to listen.

"if you shut those memories out, you aren't forgetting, you're just avoiding it. so why forget when you can remember? why forget when you can cherish?"

"it seems hard to do, it won't come easy. but a day will come that those once painful memories suddenly flood back into your mind yet the pain isn't there anymore. you'll just smile. because you've accepted, forgave, and cherished."

"thats when you can say i've healed."