Happiness| hyunmin

Suffer

*jeongins perspective yet again peeps* cuz like who doesn't want a lovely jeongin right we want him happy KSKDK. Alright let's begin!!

He took my hand into his. My heart thumping yet again.

I fucking love you Chris bang.

Minho hyung. He invited me to a party that was being held at changbin's house.

"Hey Chris??" I asked the boy next to me.

"Yeah innie." He looked at me.

"There is this party being held at changbin's house.... I was wondering if you wanted to go with m-" his phone buzzed.

"Sorry... it's Minnie." He smiled at his phone. My heart ached. "He invited me to go to a party with him!!" He said jumping up and down while hugging his phone...

"Oh... congrats hyung...?" I said smiling. He smiled back at me.

"But what were you saying?"

"Oh nothing." I gave him a reassuring smile. "I-I have to go ok..." I felt tears start to form in my eyes. He let go of my hand.

"Ok...?" Chris sounded very confused. "I'll see you around then innie." I nodded and quickly turned the other way. Tears falling from my eyes.

I hate you Chris bang, but I love you so fucking hard.

It was the end of the day. 5:30 is when the party starts. I still have a lot of time to prepare. I head to my closet. I wanted something flashy, yet I know I can't pull that off. So I grab a casual striped shirt. With some light blue jeans to go with it.

I had to the bathroom. I grab my make-up bag and proceed to give myself a bit of eyeshadow just a bit. Along with some lipgloss. Ok I'm ready.

I arrive at the house on time. I enter and first thing I do is look for Chris. There weren't many people there yet so it didn't take me long to realize that he wasn't here yet.

A couple minutes passed by and I heard a familiar voice. My head shot up.

"Cuties first..." my heart sank. I stood up when he suddenly looked over at me. I flashed him a really cute smile but he looked away....

Oh right he's with seungmin. I smile to myself. Already feeling tears forming in my eyes.

""WHO WANTS TO PLAY 7 MINUTES IN HEAVEN!!!" Someone shouted. I saw Chris going, so why not do it.

It was his turn to spin. It spun and it spun around until... it landed on me. Seungmins eyes widened. I could tell he was panicking, but Chris reassured him that it was just a game.

I stood up and slowly headed towards the room. Were we about to make out or f-fuck each other. My cheeks got flustered. No no jeongin stop thinking about that.

He closed the door behind him. Ah crap. My anxiety is starting to rise up...

"Sooo..." I started off. "I didn't think we'd get paired up." I laughed. Scratching the back of my neck.

"Yeah this is weird I mean we're just friends..." Chris walked over to me. Yeah friends. I smiled at him.

"Soo what do you want to do??" I asked him turning my face to face him only to see that we were inches apart. My eyes widened. I could feel my cheeks burning. "Uh Chris...?" I asked him.

He put his hand on my cheek and caresssed it. "Had anyone ever told you how beautiful you are??" He moved closer to me. I could smell alcohol...

"Chris your drunk." I placed my hand onto of his and removed it. "But I guess there is something I wanted to tell you. Since you're drunk you won't... probably remember this..." he just stared at me in confusion. "I-I I like you you Chris..." I lowered my head.

We sat there in silence for a hot minute. I decided to speak up again.

"You probably don't know this but I've liked you for the longest time now for about 3 years now maybe longer. You probably also don't remember this but we've meet before. I think it was your first time back in Korea. I think that's what you told me..." I quickly rambled to him.

Until i felt his hand underneath my chin signaling to face him. I lifted my face up. We locked eyes. He got closer to me and yet again I could smell the alcohol. He pressed his lips against mine. I melted straight into the kiss. Until seungmin popped into my head. I pushed him off.

"Chris no! I-I I didn't tell you how I felt for you to kiss me. You have seungmin and I am fine with that. I told you because I didn't want to keep any secrets away from you." I said slowly starting to get up knowing that our 7 minutes were probably up. "This was a mistake I'm sorry." I bowed and was about to walk out. When A hand suddenly met mine.

"Innie... I don't know if it's the alcohol or something, but you could say I like you too... but seungmin is my first priority. I've liked him for a while now and the fact that I get to be with him now... I don't know makes me happy." He gave me a smile. But a sad one at that.

"I totally get it Chris it's ok." We both walked out. It was really awkward. I excused myself to go to the bathroom.

"Ah I'm so dumb" I splashed water onto my face. "Alright" I walked out.

I looked around the spot where we were sitting noticing that he had left. Leaving me there all by myself like a fool. I sighed.

Fuck you Chris bang. Tears in my eyes started to fall. My heart broken. All by myself I was. But what did I expect. I mean I atleast got a kiss from him. I do love him. But he's happy with somebody else. Kim seungmin.

I am suffering all by myself as always. I smiled to myself before sitting down and taking a nap. While the tears fell from my eyes.