Happiness| hyunmin

All Alone

*kinda based of the song all alone by day 6.*

I sat there as I let the tears stroll down my face. Once more confused as to why exactly I was crying. I wiped the tears away once again with the long part of my hoodie that was now drenched in tears.

"Sir we're very sorry but we're about to close..." a worker softly tapped my shoulder. "It's a half day and-"

"No it's ok I get it..." I slowly stood up not wanting to face her. I quickly bowed and grabbed my coffee. I left the little shop Chris took me out to not knowing where exactly we were. I tried to turn on my phone but it was dead.

"are you fucking kidding me" I sighed in defeat. My eyes all puffing from crying were now aching. I started to walk to who knows where. Little sobs coming out of me as the tears wouldn't stop falling. I was afraid. Afraid I was going to be left all alone. The reason I was crying was because Chris kept me company and replaced the hole that hyunjin left in me.

Yet here I was all alone. My worst fear turned into a reality just because of my stupidity. For not over coming my fears of loving someone. I know that hyunjin isn't that type of guy, yet I doubted him.

I'm not worth someone's else's love. Maybe that's why I'm all alone in this world. I'm just another piece of trashing laying on the ground. Nobody to pick it up.

It took me about 30 minutes to get back home. I didn't want to be there yet it was already the afternoon.

"SEUNGMIN!!" My mother shouted at me as she ran up to me and hugged me. "Where have you been??!! Why did you not pick up my calls and why are your eyes so red and puffy my baby??!" She cupped my cheeks tears in her eyes. I made her worry.

"Sorry mom I grabbed her hands tightly. "My phone died from yesterday's party. And my boyfriend broke up with me..." I looked down smiling.

"BOYFRIEND??!! WHO WAS IT??! AND WHY DID I NOT KNOW ABOUT IT!!" She asked concerned yet excited yet sad!?

"Yeah it was just a one day thing, but let's go inside and I'll tell you about it!" I giggled. Wiping her tears of her face.

"You remember Chris right??" I asked her. She put her hand on her chin and thought.

"Oh right blonde guy right??" She asked me.

"Yeah him that's the guy i dated for one day. I guess it did hurt because I did like him at a point. I think I got to emotionally attached to him I got used to his touch and-" I stopped talking. Crap... let's not tell her about that day.

"What?? And then what??" She asked me once more.

"And now I feel alone. All alone. But I deserve this because I used Chris and now karmas getting me back for my mistakes. All of the ones I've done." I explained lowering my head again.

"Puppy.... listen here. I don't know the full details of what exactly happened nor do I want to get up all into your business as to what or what you didn't do. All I know is that you are my son and that I will support you through and decision that you make." She put her hand on my thigh and smiled at me.

"Thank you mom... but I messed up big time." I smiled at her. "I just need to think to myself... or just be alone for the mean time to clear my thoughts." I got up and bowed to her and walked into my room.

I sighed as I flipped onto my bed putting my phone to charge. When I suddenly turned it on I got spammed with messages but I didn't feel like responding. I started to close my eyes.

By the time I woke up it was 9:30.

*grumbled*

Oh that's right I didn't have anything to eat today. I got up and walked over to kitchen to see my mom sitting there looking at papers...? Bills maybe...

"Mom... what's up?? Is something wrong??" I walked up to her running my eyes.

"Huh oh it's nothing baby. Just some bills that I need to take care of by the end of the month but don't worry about anything ok mommy's got this." She rubbed the top of my head. "Let me guess you want something to eat?" I nodded my head. She stood up and headed towards the kitchen as i sat down at the table.

I yawned and she brought out a rice omelette.

"There you go baby. Now I'm going to go get some sleep ok." I nodded at her and gave her a kiss on the cheek.

"Good night mom and thank you for the food" I smiled at her as she kissed the top of my head.

"Good night." She walked towards her room and like that she was gone into slumber.

I quickly finished up the omelette. I washed the dishes and put everything back where it belonged, but right before I was going to go into my room the doorbell rung.

"Huh?? Who could it be?" I said to myself. I walked over to the door and peered through the peephole to see who it was. Jeongin...?

"Is anybody home??" He asked so innocently.

I opened the door.

"Jeongin what brings you to my house. Especially this late at night???" I bombarded him with questions. "Also you should be out this late. What will your parents think."

"I heard you broke up with Chris!" He sort of kinda shouted. Causing my eyes to widened.

"W-what??" I said shocked. "How we no I haven't told anyone nor do I think he has." He pulled a little envelope out.

"We need to talk maybe then you'll understand. Kim seungmin." He said as he smirked at me as he waved the envelope around my face.