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Forty Two

Forty Two
The Last Test

"Who the fuck is this"

"Dre get up. I can't."

It was like I finally snapped back into reality and realized the horrible mistake I was about to make. We both just sat there in disbelief. "I'm so sorry Charlie." He apologized. "No I'm sorry. I shouldn't have kissed you like that." I said putting my shirt back on.

"You harmlessly kiss me all of the time. I shouldn't have taken it that far." I continued. "It's never harmless Charlie. That's my bad. We should've rescheduled this trip."

He was right. I've loved him all of this time and deep down I felt satisfied that he still wanted me.

"Yea. We have to stop doing

"I really am sorry. When Cali got sick and I knew Kalyn couldn't come, I was kind of excited. I came here wanting this to happen. That's pretty fucked up of me knowing everything that you're going through." I rose out of bed to start packing my stuff.

"I'm going to get another room okay?" Even though we didn't go all the way and have sex I still felt like shit. I couldn't stand the tension and needed to get out of this room in order to save my son's trip.

"Zaiyr is going to ask questions. Stay at the bottom of the loft or I'll go to my moms. I promise this won't happen again though." Andre suggested. He was right. I didn't want Zaiyr to be uncomfortable so I decided to stay. "Okay. Let's just forget this happened." He smiled at me.

"That was your final test. I told you that you love that nigga! Be sure to go be with him when you get home." I smacked my lips not buying it for second. "Boy please. If I wouldn't have stopped you, you would be balls deep inside of me right now." I said causing him to chuckle.

"True, but that just would've meant you weren't ready. Your love for him stopped you. It has never stopped you before."

It was true. For so long, I considered Andre to be the one who got away. Well, the one I pushed away. It hadn't been a day since then that I hadn't thought about what my life would be like if I wouldn't have broken up with him. I always thought they were so happy. I saw the red flags and peeped the flirting. That wasn't a sign of a happy marriage. He always gave me so much advice that he should've been using himself. As much as I felt like I didn't deserve what Tyler did, neither does Kalyn.

I didn't trust Tyler around Lauren, because of the constant sexual tension when I'm with Andre. I didn't want to be in a situation like that with Izzy and Mya.

"Yea, I guess. I think I'm ready to finally do things right."

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Everything went smoothly during the rest of the trip. Me and Andre pretended like nothing happened and made sure that Zaiyr had the best birthday. Tj was going to fly back to Houston with Andre and Zaiyr so he didn't have to be alone. I also decided that Zaiyr was going to stay with Tyler for the week since he hadn't seen him. I thought that would be a good opportunity to get Izzy to Houston to finally meet the kids.