Jacob's Eighth Collection (Major Editing)

Chapter 22: Feelings of a Maniago

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(Jacob)

What have I done? I hurt her. Fuck!

"Aaaahhhh!" Her scream keeps on playing on my mind. She experienced pain for 45 minutes. I forgot that she's vulnerable.

"Hon, are you okay?" Sandra asked and wrapped her arms around my waist. I pulled it off and faced her.

"Did you put drugs on my drink?" I asked her coldly but she just smiled.

"Why would I do that hon?" She tried to get closer but I pushed her.

"I said. Did you put drugs on my drink?!" I shouted yet she stayed calm.

"I did." She answered. That's it! That's why I felt so much anger a while ago. That's the reason why I hurt Althea.

"I don't know who you are. But one thing is for sure. You're not the same Sandra I used to love before." I said and walked out from that room.

When I came back, she's already sleeping. I stared at her face. She's really beautiful. Yet she's now a dangerous woman. I know it is my fault why she became like this.

Hatred occupied her heart. And she blame Althea for that.

I honestly don't know what to feel right now. Cause goddamn! I am so confuse. When I was with her I seek for Althea's warmth.

And that's not even a good thing. I promised to only love Sandra. Only her. But it hurts me whenever I saw Althea cry. I just hide it in.

When she confessed that she loves me
My heart jumped with joy. But I didn't showed it. I'm afraid that if I say something, she'll tighten her grip on that feelings. I don't want that to happen. I might just hurt her even more.

...Ganyan ka ba talaga Jacob?! Just because you love her, handa kang manakit ng iba?! Then curse that thing called love!! Congratulations Jacob!! You win Sandra back, but you never change. Forte mo na ba talaga ang manakit ng iba?! Akala ko magbabago ka na pag bumalik si Sandra, but I'm wrong. Mas lumala ka pa! That fucking love ruin you, us, me... Nasasaktan din ako Jacob. And fine I'll admit! I love you! But it doesn't mean that you can hurt Ashley. You know what I just realized something a second ago. Naiinis ako sa sarili ko. Naiinis ako! Isinusumpa kp ang punyetang pusong ito na nagmahal ng halimaw na katulad mo...

Her words. Masakit marinig yun mula sa kanya. She whom I trusted. And she who I thought would understands me. But I have to endure the pain. Fine! I am afraid of my what if's.

What if she's just confuse? Paano kung hindi nya naman pala ako mahal and she'll soon realize it? Natatakot akong magising na lang isang araw na wala na sya. I am afraid to lose her. Ilang beses na akong nawalan. And I won't let that happen again.

Kaya kong mawalan ng kayamanan at kapangyarihan pero ang mawala sya, it's better to just die. I am a selfish man. Kahit kamuhian nya ako sa ginagawa ko sa kanya, I don't give a damm, as long as she is mine.

I stiffened when Sandra suddenly stand up and went near the window. My forehead wrinkled and followed her.

"Shit!" They're on the back gate. And they're trying to escape.

Naunang tumakbo si Sandra pababa and I followed her. But I am too late.

Sandra and Ashley are pulling each others hair. And Althea and Seven.

I quickly run out of the gate. Shit! Ang naabutan ko na lang ay isang taxi na umaandar palayo. Anger run down my spine. My hands formed into fists. Kung kelan ko inamin sa sarili ko na mahal ko sya, saka naman sya sumuko. Arrggh!!