1095 Days, The 18 Lover

18. Shh.. Are you Blind?

Redemptions fulfill the future,
Unexpected fate among the lines.
As collided into a night sky,
The scars are coming much more.

I thought, i could hung on,
the life between the ropes i made up.
But the path didn't go as I planned.
We fucked up, I lost hope.

Life ... is a new challenging obstacles.
I wish I could pass it easier,
But turns out, I fail.
Sobbing on my little room at 3 AM.
Bleeding underneath the eyes-
The eyes who've seen within.
The bad ones, repeated like a projector.
I wish I didn't need you this much.

But I do...

Then- There's a thin line between giving up,
or continuing the life.
I closed every door,
but the wind keep coming back from the windows.
I've sitting hours and hours looking a small breeze every time the wind hit the windows.
It feels relieving.

People are just mean, every time we need hands they turning themselves.
We carrying our burden with our own.
We didn't realize when we go through certain moment we had,
We keep holding on their hands but we never know when will they turning their backs.

Life is unsure and full of insecurities,
its ourself who determined what it worths to.
Aren't we?

I was too blind right from the start,
I thought you were all the shine.
Yes, you are the sparkle on my tiny galaxies.
But for you,
I'm not capable to handle all the stuff.
I didn't see where it goes.
You clearly understood,
People like me doesn't belong to someone like you.

I know, I was too blind but I couldn't open my eyes even though I'm not blindfolded.
It just hurts to know the truth,
That nobody in all your perspectives would say yes for me.